OneShot Book

Hurts Like Hell

This is another weird one.
Italics = flashback to a while ago
Bold and italics - song lyric
Normal = present time, though it kinda skips through time for effect

Hopefully it will make sense also
Trigger Warning for like blood and suicide
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*How can I say this without breaking?*

"Dallon, please."

*How can I say this without taking over?*

"Brendon, I wanna start my own band again."

*How can I put it down into words?*

"Please, don't leave me yet. I'm not ready."

*When Its almost too much for my soul alone*

"Ok Bren, I won't leave. I would never leave. Even if we're separated, I'm not gonna drop you."

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"Thank you."

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"Anything for you Bren."

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"I love you Dal."

*And it hurts like hell*

"I love you too."

*Yea it hurts like hell*

"Promise?"

"Of course."

"Its not a promise if you don't say it."

"I promise."

*I don't want them to know the secrets*

"Brendon Boyd Urie!! Get down here!" Brendon's mom yelled

"Coming mom!" He shouted back jogging to the room his mother was in. There stood his parents with a pride magazine and a notebook in hand.

*I don't want them to know the way I love you.*

"What is this?!" His father asked as Brendon's mouth went dry.

"W-well, I-I d-don't b-b-believe in the s-stuff you d-do. And I-I-I uh support th-the lgbtq+ c-community..." He tripped over his words, deciding to just let it go."And I'm gay."

*I don't think they'd understand it, no*

"I want you out next week."

"B-but dad!"

"Go to that boyfriend of yours."

"Dad p-please!"

"NOW."

*I don't think they would accept me, no.*

"D-Dallon, p-please c-come get me."

"What's wrong bubba?"

"P-please Dallon!"

"I'm coming, just stay on the line."

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"You're ok Bren, I love you."

"I loved and I loved and I lost you.*

"I love you too. Promise?"

"Of course."

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"Its not a promise if you don't say it."

"I promise."

*And it hurts like hell*

Bassist Dallon Weekes Leaves Panic! at the Disco: 'I'm Grateful for the Chance I've Had'

*Yea it hurts like hell*

"I still love you, always will."

"Promise?"

"Of course."

"Its not a promise if you don't say it."

"I promise."

*Dreams fight with machines*

Heavy breathing and cold sweat

*Inside my head like adversaries*

"Don't leave him, don't leave Dallon."

*Come wrestle me free, clean from the war*

"Its ok, he doesn't want you here anyway. Keep going, more blood needs to spill, die."

Call Love?

Yes or no

*Your heart fits like a key, into the lock on the wall*

Yes

*I turn it over, I turn it over*

"I'm sorry Dallon"

*But I can't escape*

"I'm coming Bren, I promise."

*I turn it over, I turn it over*

"D-Don't come hun" he breathed slowly as he slumped to the wall. Blood lose already catching up.

"I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"BRENDON!!" Dallon yelled finding the boy and scooping him up, taking his shirt and jacket off to hold it to Brendon's wounds.

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"Hey Dallon, don't cry. I love you."

"I love you too Bren, stay with me."

*I loved and I loved and I lost you*

"Promise?"

"Of course."

"Its not a promise if you don't say it."

"I promise." He whispered kissing him quickly, feeling his breathe leave completely.

"Brendon please, open your eyes." Dallon shook him tears flowing like a river, "Bubba open your eyes."

*And it hurts like hell*

"I promise, I swear, I promise."