Who I Used To Be (Karma X Nagisa)

Training

I want to thank the writer of The Serpent Inside I was having problems coming up with a filler chapter or a chapter at all, and she helped me come up with the plot for this chapter. Go check out her fanfiction if you haven't yet, it is pretty awesome.
Nagisa Pov

Karma went home after we decided that after school everyday we would stay and train to be better. The mountain is the perfect place to train, we can run uphill, learn to hide, and be good assassins.

To be honest I like spending time with Karma, he is really funny. He can be scary at times but he is really a great guy. He has golden eyes which are really rare, I personally think that they are beautiful. He made a joke about world geography once and I swear it was the funniest joke I've ever heard, although everyone else just thought it was a good joke. He pretended that he was in Africa and was like "I'm gonna know exactly were I am because of world geography, because maps are over rated, oh also google. THIS CLASS IS IRRELEVANT!!!!!!!" It was hilarious. He was yelled at by kouro sensei.

I'm really exited to start training, we are also going to ask Karasoma sensei to help us. I really want to get stronger, so I can avenge my dad. I'm also going to try to be more happy and kind so I can be like my dad. Just thinking of the Grim Reaper gets my blood boiling. 

It's already 9:30 pm so I'm going to go to bed. Mostly whenever I go to bed I'll think about my day, which mostly consisted of Karma. He really is a good friend.

*time skip brought to you by outrunning karma*

During lunch we asked Karosoma if he could help us. He said yes and that we will start today. I am really really exited. I wonder what we are going to do. Are we going to fight until the sun is down, are we going to run up the mountain, are we going to climb up the trees. What will Karosoma teach us.

Everyone had left to go home and Karma, Korasoma, and I were the only ones there. "Ok, so you want to avenge your dad and defeat the Grim Reaper, the greatest assassin in all of Japan." He says and I nodded my head in response. "Drop and gives me 20 push-ups!" He said. I was confused for a minute but I did it.

He made us do so many pushups, squats, sit ups, pull ups, lunges, running, and crunches. I'm slowly dying more everyday.

Karma Pov

This training is so hard, and I swear I thought I was tough but I felt like crying. Finally a week in and me and Nagisa get to fight. Just hand to hand combat, whoever get the first stab wins.

"Nagisa! Imagine Karma is the Grim Reaper, Karma is really the one that killed your dad years ago." He said

At first Nagisa fought a little more rough but then, out of nowhere I was stabbed. I didn't even see it coming, all I knew was I saw his smile.

"Nagisa won this round, go again." He said

This time his eyes were a blue I've never seen from him before. Almost like a snake he had pinned me down and stabbed me.

"Nagisa won again. Let me try something out."

He went in place of me and fought against Nagisa, and this time I understood what was going through Nagisas head. He actually thought about it, that we could be the grim reaper. I thought that he was a sweet little cupcake afriad of hurting anyone but, look at him. He has some serious bloodlust. To be completely honest. I'm scared.

They finished their fight, and of course Korasoma won, Nagisa still needs training.

"Ok you guys can go home now, training is over for today." He said.

Me and Nagisa went to go grab our things, and Nagisa still had that bloodlust in his eyes. It was like he was a vampire and everyone around him was his prey, and he would never go back to normal if he drank the blood that he so desperately wanted. The thought of Nagisa turning into that something different, it made me feel like I would be losing someone important, like he would change and hate me. I hate that feeling, that feeling that Nagisa would hate me, that feeling of being alone again, because he won't be there by my side.

"I don't think we should train anymore." I don't want to lose him. "Why?" He asked. Why don't I want to lose him, why does the thought of him not being with me make me feel so down. "I don't think we will be able to defeat him so why try?" I said. "Are you giving up on me, ur the one who came up with this idea!!!!?" His voice started to raise. "I'm not giving up I'm just saying that this is pointless, I would rather get the money for killing the octopus." I said. His bangs covered his blue eyes and he looked down."Yea ok, I get it. I'll see you tomorrow at school. Bye Karma." He waved to me as he walked into his house.

I started walking home and let me tell you that those words sting. "Bye Karma." Those words replayed in my mind until I got home, while I did my homework, while I ate, while I get ready for bed. And as I payed in my bed.

Why did it feel like he was saying goodbye forever. Why does it sting so much. Like my heart was breaking. I have Okuda so I guess I wouldn't be completely alone. And I have my maids and my butler, they are here for me. It just feel like my world would fall apart without him. Why.

Why did it make me feel so empty

A/N: Hey my little Karmagisa Tribe. I know, I know, I'm doing really bad at updating often, but I'm really trying and I didn't have any inspiration, and every time I went to it, i got distracted!!!. It will start to get really good really soon I promise. I love you, bai.