Who I Used To Be (Karma X Nagisa)

Coming out

*Nagisa Pov*

I wake up in Karma's arms, remembering what we did last night. I blush as bright as I can possibly blush. I can't believe I let Karma do all those things to me~. I try to get up so I can get dressed but Karma is holding me down. Dang he's strong, but I need to get up! It's already Monday and we have school today. I try to wake him up, but he doesn't budge. I shake him a bit. "Karma get up, we need to get ready for school~." He still doesn't move. "Karrrrmmmmmaaa~." Nothing. "KARMMMMAAAAA GET UP!!!!" Finally his eyes flutter open and he smiles at me, making my heart flutter. "Good Morning Blueberry." I blush. "G-Good Morning Karma." I stuttered again! Dang it! "Lets get up we have school today." I say and Karma replies with a groan. "Ugh fine." He lets me go and I try to stand up to go get ready. Key word TRY. The second I stand up my knees give out and I fall back on the bed. My butt hurts. ;-;. "I guess we went a little hard last night huh?" Karma asks me if I'm fine and I blush. "I-I'm fine, just took me by surprise is all. I get up again and this time I stay up.  I limp a bit at first but once I get used to it I walk normally, I get dressed and do my morning routine and so does Karma.

Once we are at the school I make sure to stop holding his hand and walk a bit less close to him. If people find out they will judge us, I don't want that for us, we just started making friends we don't need to lose them. That made me think about my mom. What would my mom say about me being gay. I'm so nerous on what she will say about it. I mean she already doesn't like the fact that I am a guy, but to find out that guy isn't normal... She will hate me, but I've got to do it. I took a deep breath and kept walking; trying to block my mind from bad thoughts.

As the day went on I kept dreading going home to my mom. After the last period though I told Karma about how I was feeling uneasy.

"I'm going to come out to my Mom today."

"Nagisa are you sure? I know you and your mom don't exactly get along."

"Yes I'm sure... Will you be there with me when I do it?"

"Of course babe, and then afterwards we can go have some fun at my house."

I felt my face burn, and my heart attack me.

"D-Don't say stuff like that!"

All he did was laugh and give me a creepy face. I pushed him into the wall and started the walk down the hill.

"Oh come on sweetheart don't leave me like this!"

Karma called after me and I just rolled my eyes and blushed.

As he caught up to me he grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers together.

As we approched my house I let go of his hand and hesitated as I told him to stay there while I went in.

"M-Mom are you home? I have to tell you something!"

My Mom came out of the kitchen and looked at me worriedly

"What is it sweety?"

I gulped and prepared myself.

"Mom don't be alarmed but,... I'm.... I'm gay."

I squeezed my eyes shut; scared of what would happen next. I felt myself tremble in fear and I clenched my nails into the skin of my palm. My breathing got heavier. After a couple minutes of silence I finally opened my eyes, and looked at my Mom. She looked shocked and disappointed.

"Weren't you just a couple weeks ago out with a girl?"

"Yes, but I didn't feel anything with her. I do however feel something for Karma."

"Wait you mean Karma? That friend that comes overall the time? Have you been doing things with him!? You little bitch!!! You just had to be a guy didn't you!!? And now you tell me your a faggot!!?? Your a disgrace to me! I raise you, I give you a home, I give you clothes, I give you food, and this is how you repay! You don't listen when I try to make you in to the special child I've always wanted and now!"

I flinched when she called me a faggot. Tears rolled down my face. I feel like I've let down my Mom, and everyone else, just because I'm gay.

"Come here child!"

I hesitated. Which was a bad idea.

"NOW YOU WORTHLESS PEICE OF SHIT!"

I ran over to her and she yanked my pigtails out; leaving my hair down and tangled. She grabbed me by the hair and dragged me to the bathroom. When we got into the bathroom she violently brushed out my hair. It really hurt. It felt like I was being stabbed by pin needles mutiple at a time. She was going to rip out the skin in my head!

"MOM STOP, IT HURTS!"

She slapped me.

"No! You don't get to decide. Also you are no longer aloud to go out of the house unless it be for school or I take you out with me alright!"

Tears were streaming from my eyes like a waterfall. They were from the pain inside and out.

As she finally finished brushing out my hair, she grabbed me by the neck of my shirt and dragged me to my room, where she ripped off my clothes and forced me into a dress.

"Mom stop please... It hurts"

"SHUT UP YOU BITCH!"

She pushed me to the ground and started kicking me. I closed my eyes tight and hugged myself.

"Mom stop! Please Mom!!! Mom plea-"

Suddenly she stopped and I heard a loud thump. I hesitated in opening my eyes when I felt a pair of warm arms wrap around me. I saw the red hair and golden eyes that I love so much and hugged him back; sobbing into his shoulder.

"I'm sorry. When I heard screams I tried to open the door, but it was locked. When I looked around I couldn't find any places to get in so I just busted open the door. I-I should have gotten here sooner. I'm so sorry. I love you. I-"

I stopped him by kissing him.

"It's ok I'm just glad it's over. I love you too."

I just sat there and sobbed into his arms.

"Come on. Lets go home. You're going to live with me now ok?"

"O-okay.."

I got up and grabbed the things I need, and went with Karma to his house.

A/N I'M SOOO SORRY I HAVEN'T POSTED IN SO LONG. I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I DO NOT MEAN TO KEEP YOU ON EDGE!

Anyways it hurt me to write this chapter. Also it is not the end. I will write one more chapter, and that will be the last chapters.

I love you guys. My Karmagusa Tribe!