Me, Myself And I [ Arts & Thoughts Catalogue ]

~It's okay..~

The number of thoughts in my head

How many days I've prayed

Hoping everything will pass

Like they usually do

But its been there forever

No matter how much I rant

write

draw

think

pray

they still remain in my thick skull

running around

screaming

echoing

on repeat

making me question myself

my journey

my mistakes

my achievements

my very existence

Can they ever go away?

why don't they go away?

Please leave me alone

I can't keep them to myself anymore

I want to scream

I so badly want to tell someone

Someone who can help me

make me feel better at least

tell someone

but I can't

 I don't

"It's okay" 

I can keep it in

All to myslef

Like I've been doing this whole time

Coz I want to hide them

Keep them for myself

In my little world only

and not burden anyone else

That's the truth

"It's okay"

I can only whisper to myself and whisper

Stutter through my cold tears

my silent tears I cry alone at night

when the whole worlds asleep

and only the free spirits and ghosts

that haunt my room 

and walk around in night

can see me

only the bright white moon 

and the twinkling  stars

who live in the night sky

the sea of dark blue and balck

can ever see how much I hurt.

how much I try

to smile everyday

when in truth

every freaking day

is a battle

a battle between my mind

and my heart