Me, Myself And I [ Arts & Thoughts Catalogue ]

~Looking for the spark~

I have everything~

Everything I could ask for~

I have everything to make me happy.

But.... why am I still unhappy?

I used to laugh like crazy,

Smile with love and happiness.

Hug with affection.

Now I feel empty.

Maybe it's just another mood in which,

I feel lost and alone,

Even though in reality I have everything I need.

Technically and in reality, I do,

but spiritually?

I don't know.

I kept staring out the window, watching the bright sunset.

Sunsets, so beautiful,

yet the sun is going, the sun goes away, and we only see how beautiful the setting is.

When in truth she hypnotizes us with a sky full of colours, and slowly sinks away.

"Yuki. What's wrong?"

I looked back, without hesitation I ran towards him, and grabbed him for a hug, colliding against his chest.

"Takuya, I have a question..." I whispered as I snuggled in his chest, his arms wrapped around me.

"Ask me anything." he smiled.

"I think life has lost it's spark... It's glowing flame. Everything's so gloomy, and dull and..." I couldn't finish. I just hugged him tighter, hoping that his affection with help me calm down, make me happy.

"Yuki, why is that bad?" he softly whispered into my ear. I looked up at him. The orange and pink reflected off his face as he looked into my eyes.

"Isn't it?"

He chuckled and held me by my waist. Looking into my eyes.

"Yuki-chan, the spark hasn't gone, It can never gone, you've grown out of it. Your used to it, and now you find things less exciting. Is that it?"

I looked down.

"Yes... but, why is it not bad?" I looked up at him again.

"Well, the good thing is, now you can find a better one. A brighter flame, a new spark in your life."

"But, what if I already love what I have?" I asked. I don't want to move on.

He smiled.

"Then, you can try to make the existing flame brighter...better.."

I looked to the side, unsure about what he meant.

"But.." 

I looked up at him.

"If you really love what you already have, you would never see it dull. You'll learn to love it, just the way it is. And never give up on it."

"So.... what If I told you that life seems to have lost it's spark?" I asked.

"Your wrong. It never did and it never will. You just got to look at the things you have now, the way you used to see. When it was new and bright. It's the same flame, it's your vision that's changed Yuki-chan." He smiled.

A few seconds of silence blew passed us. The sun had gone, and the evening star shone in the twilight sky. I looked at it and smiled.

"Your right." 

He smiled and held me by my hands.

"Come on, let's go and watch the stars come out. You like that don't you?" he smiled as he walked upto the door, looking back at me.

"Sure! I'll be there." I smiled. He walked out of my room.

I ran to my desk, on my table was a book filled with pressed flowers. I opened it and the first flower was a pressed six petal sakura. A soft chuckle left my lips as I looked at it.

This brought me good luck and happiness. Besides, me and Takuya's love is represented by this flower. That's a whole new story~