Me, Myself And I [ Arts & Thoughts Catalogue ]

~A free spirit with no greed~

To lie, 

is my truth.

To tell them,

"I'm fine!"

To tell him,

"It's nothing..."

When in truth,

my heart screams his name.

To smile for pictures,

when inside I'm,

I'm wishing I could disappear.

Is it really that  hard?

That  hard to let me live

the way I want?

Is it too much to ask

to ask for my own peace?

Without having to,

live according to others

according to the way we have to

according to societies and groups

according to rules and laws

this horrible maze of a world 

which we now call 

earth?

I won't cause any  trouble

All I want is to live till my heart gives up on me

Since apparently "Life" is a damn gift

I highly doubt

I see no gift in living in a cage made out of flesh and bone

no beauty in clothes

makeup

hairstyles

It's all fake

Since suicide is a sin

I guess I'll just keep quiet and live

and living, I have to live according to others

Ain't that sweet?

Is this the so called "Beautiful" and "Gift" life is?

To live in a horrid body  that ages each day

and to live life according to the was societies want us to?

To slave away with a job

running after money

and fake love

Don't get me started on love

Everybody cheats, or get sick of each other and has no love for each other

I'd rather be the ghost

that roams the earth, 

watching these stupid humans blindly run after their "life"

and treat it like it's the biggest thing in the world.

But here I am,

wishing to finish everything

when I'm still young and have so much more ahead of me

so much more disasters and burdens to gain

"Life's wonderful"

"Life's a gift"

"Cherish it"

**** that

I'm waiting till my heart gives out on me

then I'll be able to live the way I want

I don't care whether or not I'll be missed

I really don't

I wanna get away

Be by myself

I don't care whether I'll be lonely

It's better than being with others

I don't have to lie to anyone

nor do I have to worry  about anything

I won't have anything to call "mine"

and that's the best  thing that can happen

~