What the hell is this?! (H2Ovanoss)

Chapter 25

I don't even remember what just happened right after Ohm closed that door. Right after I saw that sinister smile. It has only been a day or maybe two and I'm already getting frustrated by all of this and realizing what I'm being used for.

I'm not a fucking sex doll!

I'm a human being!

What I see around me is darkness and emptiness...all I wanted was to see happiness and feel that happiness in my cold, empty, and shattered heart. I just wanted someone that could be there for me and put these dull shards back together with me even if it's painful or has million of pieces.

I just wanted to try to love someone...

Everything that I try to love dies or just walks out of my life thinking that I don't even exist.

I even wanted a family!

I wanted something that I could hold onto until I was ready to let go but no! I let go too early and now I'm here lost not knowing what to do!

They only fucking used me. They don't even care about me! NO ONE FUCKING EVEN KNEW ABOUT ME!!! This bitch only saw me in one of Jonathan's sex videos in Timber. Jonathan's gang only appeared in my life because they thought I killed Jazmine.

NO! I did not kill her...why would I even kill her? She actually was someone that loved me for who I was. Even in the most difficult moments, she was there feeding me cheesecake or ice cream while we watched movies.

Oh man how I miss those amazing four months until that masked man had to come in and ruin it.

How I fucking hate my life!

BANG

What the hell am I even doing here?! I'm supposed to get up and not just lay here stare at the fucking dull ceiling covered in blood! Blood?

Why is there blood in the ceiling?

I slowly raise my hands up as if I was reaching for something and saw them covered in blood.

Now I remember...I killed them. I killed Ohm by ripping off his head with a knife and shooting the bearded man that I never knew his name in the guts and in the head just like they did to me and her.

"He is right here!"

Those blue eyes stared down at me with such relief and worry as I felt my body get covered up in his big blue hoodie which exposed his bulletproof vest and black sleeved shirt.

"J-Jon?"

"Hey Evan, I'm right he-hey! Calm down Evan! Evan! EVAN!"

I started to swing my fists at him as I yelled out nonsense, but they were understandable nonsense.

"WHAT AM I TO YOU GUYS!! AM I FUCKING ASSHOLE!! A FUCKING SEX TOY!!! TELL ME!! YOU GUYS DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME!! YOU GUYS ONLY WANTED TO FIND THE MURDERER BY LETTING THEM TOUCH ME!! I'M TIRED OF BEING TOUCHED!! I'M TIRED OF SEX!! I'M TIRED OF RUNNING AWAY!!! I'M TIRED OF BEING USED!!! I'M TIRED OF...I'm tired of...I'm tired of everything..."

Tears started to welled up in my eyes, my heart beating fast.

"Evan...we didn't know..."

"Heh...you didn't know that I was gonna kill them but what you guys did know is that I was gonna get hurt. I get fucked by total weirdo that freaking marked me by carving his name on my skin and then thrusting his hips senselessly into me. That was fucking painful even though I was supposed to enjoy the blood coming out my body, but I didn't. It just felt wrong." I said as the tears slid down my face like a waterfall.

"Evan..."

"Don't you fucking Evan me...don't you fucking call me by my actual name Jonathan. Every fucking time when I'm near you I'm just not myself! My mind gets mixed up with this things in me which makes my heart beat fast and makes me have weird thoughts which I don't want to have. I fucking hate you for what you had done to me." I said as rubbed my face and trying to get rid of the tears.

He stayed quiet as I cried in front him, covering my face. A guy wearing a eagle mask walked in and saw me crying so he immediately ran up to me as he took his mask off.

"Oh Brock!" I hug him as I cried into his arms. "Let's get you out of here Evan." He told me as he helped me get up and escorted me out of this place. "I hate my life Brock." I told him as I sat in the passenger seat of this car, gripping the big blanket that was wrapped around my body.

"Oh Evan, don't say that." He said as he held my hand. Was watched the guys walk out the building forcefully dragging the Smii7y guy to their truck while I sat here in Brock's car, watching with a cold stare.

"Let's go get you cleaned up." Brock said as he started the engine and drove off into the dark streets of the city. I stayed the quiet for the rest of the ride until he parked the car in side the garage and took me to the bathroom.

He started the water and makes sure it's warm enough for me to get in. I took off Jonathan's hoodie and any remaining clothing on me which was my socks and that's all.

"The water ready, I'll leave you here alone for a bit so tell out my name if you need anything." Brock told me as he pulled me into a hug and helped me get in the tub of warm water.

"Th-Thanks" I thanked him as I sat there enjoying the warm water touch my skin and watching Brock walked out the bathroom.

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"Jonathan? Jon!" Nogla called out my name but I ignore him by walking inside the house and heading straight to my room.

"Why didn't I expect him to say that...why?" I asked myself as I took off any gear on me and sat there on the bed thinking about all of this.