Short Story Collection

The Admin x Stella- What is this Feeling?

NOTE: This is in between "Giant Consequences and "Jailhouse Block"

(The Admin's POV)

I was feeling rather... confused at the moment. Mixed emotions.

First, I was disappointed in Jesse, for she failed to complete the challenge I gave her by caring about her friends. Petra was officially the winner, so I gave her the gauntlet. I teleported her away back to my headquarters to train her, while I sent Jesse and the others to the Sunshine Institute so that they can be punished for disappointing me.

But my disappointment didn't last long. After I sent them all off, I was alone with Stella and her llama Lluna.

"Where did you send them to?" asked Stella

"The Sunshine Institute. Which reminds me, since you're not my partner, I will find you something to help me with," I told her boldly.

Stella smiled at me.

"I'm happy to be on your side now, Admin. I'll help in anyway I can," she said.

Stella suddenly gave me a pat on the back, before walking to Lluna and petting her. The llama gave her an unamused look (my guess is that Lluna doesn't like her owner...), but my thoughts on the bond between them were halted almost immediately.

I don't know why, but I could feel my heart beating (at least I think I have a heart) after the kind words Stella told me, and that pat on the back.

"Admin, are you okay? You look flustered," said Stella.

She was looking at me for a second, which snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Y-yes. I'm alright. Now then, let's get you started with your new job," I said.

I used my powers to carefully levitate her and Lluna and I teleported the three of us to my quarters at the Sunshine Institute.

After we arrived, I debriefed her on what this place is and what her job would be. After I told her what he duties were, she nodded her head and grabbed her uniform off of the armor stand.

"I'll do my best, Admin. I should be able to handle this job. I lead Champion City after all. It's like a walk in the park, so being in charge of the lower level block guests shouldn't be a hassle," she said.

She stepped into the closet to change into her uniform. As I waited for her to finish changing and come out, I couldn't help but still feel conflicted with what she told me.

Why did she want to stick by my side so much? And... why did I feel so happy to have her on my side? What was this feeling that was inside my chest right now?

Stella came back out, and for some reason, I couldn't help but stare when I saw her in her uniform. I don't know why, but I thought she looked... stunning in her uniform.

"I'm ready for work, but before I go, anything else I should know about?" she asked me, with a smile.

I couldn't answer her question. When she smiled at me, I felt something else inside me. What was this feeling? Why did I feel something I haven't felt before, or in forever, now as I was with Stella?

"Admin?" she asked me.

"Huh? Oh. No. There's nothing else, but please let me know if you have any questions about anything. Anything to make your work fun and rewarding for you," I told her.

She smiled at me again.

"I won't let you down," she said.

I called for the Warden to walk her to her station, and as I watched Stella and Lluna leave with the Warden, I felt relieved to be alone. Now I could try to work on what this feeling was.

Alone in my quarters, I quickly looked out a window I had so I can check on Petra, who I am keeping locked up in a room. She was rather angry right now, punching the walls (which was pointless) in a pathetic attempt to break out. I wanted to wait for her to calm down before approaching her so I can get to work on making her my champion.

But I couldn't think of what to do with Petra. I was more focused on this conflicting situation regarding Stella. I stepped away from the window and paced around my room, trying to think through what it was inside of me.

I put my hand to my chest, and I swear, I could feel my heart beating a little rapidly (maybe I do have a heart...). I moved my hand away from my chest, and I checked a monitor that had footage on... her...

Prisoner X. The one that used to have the same power as me. I frowned when I saw the footage of her, hopelessly trying to get free from her restraints.

I used to know her. Her real name is Xara. But she didn't like me with this power, and she tried to stop me. I removed her power and kept it for myself, making me stronger. I couldn't let the truth get out, so I locked her away.

I continued to frown as I turned my back to the monitor, but when I did, I... I sighed. Sadly. It was at that moment, I realized what was going on with me.

I feel... something new because of Stella.

I know what everyone thinks of me. The guests. The Warden. Xara. Even Jesse and her friends now. They see me as a monster. Because of the lies I've told them. Because of how I pretended to be someone else that they knew. Because I keep them trapped here.

But... the truth is, I just feel alone. Unloved if you want to put it that way. I truly don't want to be this way. This institute was really made to rehabilitate bad people before I let them go home, and I really did feel connected to people before.

But after they left, they stopped talking to me. They pretended they didn't know me anymore. Left me forever.

I... I felt alone. Like no one cares about me. No one loves me. All they seem me is as a monster, because of the deception I've caused. And I've kept the warden and the guests here because I can't have the strength to let them go. I really don't.

Now I understand why I feel something different with Stella, but... I still couldn't understand what this feeling was.

I normally get excited when I bring more guests here, but... why was this different with Stella? Why did I feel more happy to have her with me rather than have the need to keep her here forever?

As I thought this through, I started to pace my room again. I came across a mirror, and looked at myself. I looked flustered. My cheeks were pink, and I looked like I was nervous for some reason.

"What is this feeling?" I asked myself, while looking at my reflection.

I put my hand to my chest again, feeling my heart beat more.

A few minutes past, and I felt like I may have put two and two together.

"Wait... this feeling... is this... is this what love feels like? But... why do I feel like it's... a different kind of love for... for her?" I whispered.

I always wanted friends, but why did I feel like I wanted to be more than that with Stella.

"Is... is it possible that I love Stella? But... not as a friend... as... more than a friend?" I whispered to myself.

I stepped away from the mirror and walked to my monitor. I used my powers to shift it to Stella's office. I could see her sitting there, watching over the guests who were fighting zombies to eat rotten flesh. She cringed a little bit when she saw one of them eat some rotten flesh. I felt... bad for her, since she had to see something that probably disgusted her.

"What is this feeling? What kind of love do I feel for you, Stella?" I whispered.

I sighed again.

"Well, I don't want to let you go, Stella. I want to understand what this feeling is... and... if you share it in return to..." I whispered.