Mr Blue and me...

Rise and Shine

"I'm pregnant..." I blurt looking him straight to his eyes.

"What?"

"What part didn't u understand, exactly?"I ask ironically

"No, I understood it, but...how? we use protection..."

"yeah, sometimes they just don't work, John!"

"And now what?"

"What do u mean? After we make sure everything is ok with Anthony and he's out of the woods, I'll schedule an abortion" I answer casually

"What?" John and the girls ask at the same time

"I'm not gonna keep it, I have a future, I'm not gonna ruin it!" I explain

"Alexa please, let's think this through...it's our baby, u can't just kill it!"

"I'm not killing anything, it's just a few cells, nothing more! I'm not gonna raise a child, and sure as hell I'm not gonna give birth...I don't even know why I'm discussing that!"

"Alexa, it's a baby...u can't think like it's something without life. It's growing inside u as we speak!" Stella says

"It has no life yet! But let's get something clear: it's my body and I'm gonna do whatever the hell I want!" I hiss

"Yeah, but it's my baby too, I have a say on that" John says with a raised voice

"John, we're not ready to be parents-we're barely dating! We might break up before this baby is even born for all we know"

"Wow, I didn't know u had that possibility on your mind..." He says a little hurt

"Oh come on John, she's right! U don't know what's going to happen, life's tough" Kate explains

"Relationships end at some point and it hurts like a motherfucker...especially when a child is in the middle! Can u imagine how hard it might be? Their parents got married just because they were expecting a child and broke up a few months or years after it was born...reall smooth!" I add

"Can u at least think about it first? Please..." he begs

"Ugh...fine" I say just to get rid of him

"I'll go call my mom again" I say and go outside

After 3 hours, we're still sitting at the waiting area. John left an hour ago, but the girls stayed and my mom hasn't contacted me yet

"U can go if u want to, I'll be fine"I tell them

"Are u kidding? No way we're leaving u here alone" Emma replies

"It's pretty late..."

"We don't care, u're not going to go through this alone"  Kate insists

"Thank u, really! I'm so messed up right now..."

"We understand...we can't possibly know what u're going through right now. Please, though, answer me one question: I know it's not the perfect time, but who is the father?" Stella asks

"True, I'm dying to know..."Kate agrees

"It's John" 

"How do u know that?" Emma asks

"I got pregnant 2 weeks ago and that week I didn't have sex with Anthony" 

"How come?" Kate asks

"Well, the time we were spending that week was limited and we didn't want to waste it having sex, so we were just cuddling watching TV, talking..."

"Since when is having sex wasted time for u?" Kate asks confused

"Since I met Anthony...I'm not a sex addict Kate! And don't get me wrong, I love having sex with him, but just sitting with him is nice. He's smart and I like talking with him" I explain again smiling