Mr Blue and me...

When u're gone...

Alexa's P.O.V

When he left, I just stood there looking at the door, with tears falling down my cheeks. I couldn't believe he just left...I immediately call the girls and, of course, they come running. Before they come, I changed into my PJs

"What happened? U were so happy this morning!" Stella asks concerned when we all sit in the living room. I explain to them, while starting crying again

"Jesus Alexa...what the hell got into u?" Kate scolds me

"Seriously now! I think it's by far the stupidest thing u have ever done since I've known u...he just wanted to help u!" Emma says

"I don't know, but I don't think I was wrong. He can't help me, I have to deal with James alone. Anthony is nobody to him, if he gets in the middle, everything will go wrong..."

"Do u hear yourself? Of course he can help u! If James sees that u have someone in your life, he will back down easier. He'll realize u have moved on! And don't tell me u don't want him to leave u alone..." Kate replies

"I do! But this is my fight! Also, u don't know that he will back down; He might start bothering us more!"

"That's another reason why u need Anthony with u! He will make him leave for good...He can help u Alexa! Yeah,ok, u're not married or something, but u're still partners...u fight together..." Stella says

"I don't know, I still think that I don't need help..."

"Alexa, we all need help some times...ok, we know u're independent and that u don't need to be rescued, but letting people help u doesn't show weakness; It shows that u understand what u can and can't do by yourself! Also, it helps u bond with the person who's helping u..."Stella explains

"U asked for help when u understood u are messed up..." Emma continues

"I did it because I understood that I'm hurting people" I defend myself

"Are u sure about that? Didn't u do it because u knew u needed saving?" Stella asks me

"Alexa, let's face it...your mental health isn't good, u have issues. U have to start thinking in a different way! U're only damaging yourself, u won't get better or happy if u keep pushing everyone away..." Kate adds

"I'm happy when I'm with u or with Rafa or with him..."

"Are u really happy? Because for all I know, when u are not with us u're just sitting in silence or u're studying or u're sleeping...that's not happy..." Stella says again

"That's what depression does to u...and don't tell me to just stop being depressed!"

"I won't. I'll just tell u to stop pushing everyone away and start being appreciative! We're all trying to help u, but we can't do it if u don't let us..." She explains and I think about it

"U know what? U're right, in fact I'll call him right now to tell him to come back to talk..." I say and I pick up my phone to call Anthony. A few secs later I hang up

"What now?" Emma asks

"His phone is in airplane mode...he seriously left Texas!" I explain staring at the phone

"Jeez, u're both acting childishly!" Stella says frustrated

"He seriously left me...God! What did I do?" I say, more for me to realize it

"Now u're wondering? U fucked up! And this time, u can't blame him..." Kate explains and I start crying again

"Come on Alexa, don't cry. He'll come back! He loves u!" Stella says trying to calm me as she hugs me