Mr Blue and me...

Damaged

The rest of the week was running kinda smoothly. The pain was bearable and the bleeding was only for 2 days. Rafa is still staying with me, but Anthony isn't too happy about it. Maybe it's because he sleeps on the couch while Rafa sleeps with me. Anyway, today, 10 days later, I go to the university to have one of my exams. The girls are helping me since I'm not completely healed, even though I feel fine. They keep yelling at me, though, about the abortion. When we get in the classroom, I see John. We look at each other for some seconds and then I go to take a seat. After the exam, he comes to talk to me

"Hey..." He says feeling kinda awkward

"Hey..."I reply the same way

"How did it go?"

"U're asking about...?"

"About the exam..."

"Oh, great actually!" I answer smiling lightly

"I'm glad! And how about...the other thing?"

"It's done John...I'm sorry"

"No, u're not..."

"I kinda am...I have a heart u know! It wasn't easy, but I didn't have a choice" I defend myself

"Yes, u had... u could keep it and we could raise it!" He replies hurt

"I didn't want to do that..."

"Why?"

"Because I don't love u..." I admit and he freezes

"U never did, didn't ya?"

"I felt things for u...just, not love..."

"So everything was a lie..."

"No! I had a great time with u! U are a really good guy and any girl would be happy to be with u and someone will love u. Someone might love u even right now for all we know..." I reply putting my hand on his cheek, but he turns his head the other way

"U could at least have said it earlier..."

"I know, I'm sorry...but don't let me ruin your confidence, there are great girls out there and I'm sure u'll find one soon!"I reply taking my hand away

"U're right...there are plenty of girls out there! And I chose u, how lucky am I?"he says hurt and frustrated

"Look John, our relationship wasn't perfect...we just couldn't see it from the beginning. We are 2 completely different people, we wouldn't last for long anyway! So, please, move on..."

"Well, I hope u find someone u'll love too. Just don't let your damaged self damage them too!" He says and leaves

"Wait! I'm not damaged..." I reply and he stops walking

"Yes u are, doll..."He insists without turning to look at me and then he continues to walk. The girls finish too and they get out of the classroom

"Everything ok?" Stella asks

"Yeah, just...John said I'm damaged..."

"Damaged? How?" Emma asks

"Oh, come on...we know she is a little messed up!" Kate says

"He didn't say messed up, he said damaged, there's a difference"

"Well,I don't think it's true, so let's go" Stella says and we leave

On the way home, I'm thinking about what John said. When we arrive at my house, I go straight to my room without saying anything

"What happened?"I hear Rafa asking the girls