Today, I woke up earlier than usual, I wanted to make a nice breakfast for everyone, since there's seven people in this house, of course, including myself.
I grabbed my phone to check what time it was, and also, just to wake up a bit. It was 8:46am, I could just start cooking everything at 9:00am.
I started browsing through my pictures, where I had mainly memes, and some pictures of me and the twins together, no Shawn pictures, sadly.
I kept looking through my camera roll, a few pictures later, I saw a picture which broke my heart.
It was me and my parents, having the time of our lives in the the beach, I remember that moment like it was yesterday.
Flashback
Today, my family and I are having a picnic in the beach, I'm really excited, I've never actually had a picnic before.
My mom's making the sandwiches, while I'm packing the juice boxes, chips and cookies.
"What's that mommy?" I confusedly asked pointing at the red and purpleish substance in front of her. she just gave me a bright smile and shook her head. "This, my dear, is called wine, it's an adults drink, you can't try it until you're old enough yourself"
I didn't quite understand what she meant with 'adults drink' but I'll guess she'll tell me what it means when I'm older.
She placed both food and utensils in the basket, I excitedly ran to my dad who was in the garage getting my tricycle and soccer ball.
"Hi daddy!" I exclaimed. "What's up my little princess?" he walked up to me and brought me up to his shoulders, making me taller than I possibly ever will be.
"Are we leaving now daddy?" "We certainly are hun! Come on, let's go to the car, your mom's waiting for us over there" he crouched a little bit, I jumped off him and sprinted to the car.
My mom placed the basket in the back seat next to me, while my dad crashed the tricycle into the trunk.
"Careful!" My mom yelled from the front seat, my dad looked at her with an apologetic eyesight. "Sorry hunny, I didn't mean to throw it like that" they both chuckled and went back to what they were doing.
I want a relationship like theirs when I'm older, yes, my parents do fight sometimes, but my mom always tell me that soulmates have arguments from time to time, and that it's normal to disagree with someone and fight for your beliefs.
"Okie dokie, let's get going" my dad said, he shut closed the cars' trunk and walked to his respective seat, my dad always drives, while my mom sits beside him in the passengers seat.
"You guys got everything?" "Yup!" "Okay then, let's go" he started the car and drove to our desired destination.
That day, was one of the greatest ones I've had, it was one of those moments you wish would last forever, but unfortunately, every good thing comes to an end.
*End of flashback*
Tears were streaming all over my face, I didn't realize I was curled up in a ball in the floor, I guess I got really caught up in my dream.
I try to seem strong on the outside, I'm really sick of people icing me their sympathy every second of the day, you know? that's why I gotta keep strong for my own good.
But I should also talk to someone about how I'm feeling from time to time, it's not good to keep everything you have or want to say bottled in, it's not healthy for you or the people around you.
"It's okay, calm down, Shhhhh, I'm here, I'm here.." "Shawn?" "Yeah, I'm here, it was just a bad dream" he pulled me closer to him, I wrapped my arms around his neck, he wrapped his around my torso as I cried into his shoulder.
"I-I miss them" I said between sobs. "I know.. but you're a strong girl, you'll get through this, we'll get through this, together, remember I'm always here for you" after all my crying, I sill managed to crack a smile on my face.
"Thank you" I whispered to him. "You don't have to thank me, lets go to the kitchen and make you something for breakfast" he bopped my nose and helped me up.
"Not fair, I wanted to make all of you guys something nice to eat for breakfast" I frowned, he chuckled and shook his head.
"Too bad" he left the room, as well as me with my mouth wide open. I quickly went to my restroom and washed my face as well as my teeth.
Once I was done with that, I went to the kitchen and sat on the counter top.
"So, what are we making today?" I asked, he turned his back to me and took some supplies and foodstuffs from the fridge and drawers.
"We're making bacon, pancakes and eggs" "ew, eggs are gross" r gasped and looked at me with wide eyes. "We're making bacon and pancakes" I smiled. "That's better" I winked, he laughed and went back to what he was doing.
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"So, how was it?" He asked. "It was really good" I admitted, I had no clue he could cook.
"What are we doing today?" I asked moving on from the last topic. "I don't know, what do you want to do today?" He asked taking a big step forward.
I was still sitting on the counter top, he was now standing between my legs, our faces dangerously close to each other.
"I-I" he placed his finger between my lips.
What is he doing?
It took me like a week to get this chapter done, writers block shouldn't be a thing, anywhale 🐳 hope you guys have a good one, love youuu💜
