Miss You

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by LG1026

by LG1026

(Regina is intersexual. So g!p warning)

Is it my imagination?
Is it something that I'm taking?
All the smiles that I'm faking
"Everything is great
Everything is fucking great"
Going out every weekend
Staring at the stars on the ceiling
Hollywood friends, got to see them
Such a good time
I believe it this time

Tuesday night
Glazed over eyes
Just one more pint or five
Does it even matter anyway?

Just like that and I'm sober
I'm asking myself, "Is it over?"
Maybe I was lying when I told you
"Everything is great
Everything is fucking great"
And all of these thoughts and the feelings
Cheers to that if you don't need them
I've been checking my phone all evening
Such a good time
I believe it this time

Tuesday night
Glazed over eyes
Just one more pint or five
Does it even matter anyway?

Now I'm asking my friends, how to say "I'm sorry"
They say "Lad, give it time, there's no need to worry"
And we can't even be on the phone now
And I can't even be with you alone now
Oh how, shit changes
We were in love, now we're strangers
When I feel it coming up I just throw it all away
Get another two shots 'cause it doesn't matter anyway

We're dancing on tables
And I'm off my face
With all of my people
And it couldn't get better they say
We're singing 'til last call
And it's all out of tune
Should be laughing, but there's something wrong
And it hits me when the lights go on
We're dancing on tables
And I'm off my face
With all of my people
And it couldn't get better they say
We're singing 'til last call
And it's all out of tune
Should be laughing, but there's something wrong
And it hits me when the lights go on
Shit, maybe I'll miss you

I looked around my club, realizing how boring it is without Emma. I own a string of high-end nightclubs called The Evil Regal. That's actually how Emma and i first met. It was the grand opening of my club in New York. I saw her the moment she walked in and i knew I was in love. I was in the vip section across the club. But she stood out. I found her as soon as I could and bought her a drink. She seemed smitten. We saw each other for quite awhile. And then... one day she just cut off all contact with me. That was about six months ago. And holy shit do I miss her. But almost every night I'm at the club with my best friends. I don't let anyone know how much I miss her. They think I'm better off without her. But I can't live without her. It's driving me insane.

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I looked around as I walked in the club looking for Regina. My sister is best friends with her. She told me that I need to talk to her. I agree. I fucked up by just disappearing. But she'll understand. I hope. Suddenly, I felt eyes on me and when I turned to see who it was, I was making eye contact with her from across the room. And holy shit all the feelings rushed back. All of a sudden we were both making our way towards each other. And when we met in the middle, we met in a passionate kiss and tears rolled down my cheeks. She's not going to understand. I'm the worst person in the world. I'm going to lose the most amazing woman... fuck. She pulled away and wiped my tears. "I missed you so much." She said softly and I nodded. "I missed you too." I said and my voice cracked. She pulled me to the vip section and then to the stairs that led to her upstairs apartment. It was here in case she was here late or got drunk. She closed and locked the door after us. We sat on the couch and she looked at me. "W-where have you been?" She asked and my breathing hitched. "I'm scared to tell you.." I whispered. She shook her head. "You're back. That's what matters." She said and caressed my cheek. I started crying again. I was going to lose her all over again. "Y-you know my parents live in Maine." I said and she nodded. "I... found out I was six months pregnant. It was yours of course. But i was terrified. I thought you were going to leave me. S-so I left. I went and stayed with my parents. A-and we have a son now.." i said softly. She looked at me in shock and i cried harder. No no no no no. "So... we have a three month old son.." She said and i shook my head. "Four and a half. He was really early. Premature. But he's perfectly healthy and absolutely amazing." I said sadly. "Emma... i was in love with you. I wanted to propose." She said and I sniffled. Was. Wanted. "I thought if I saw you again, I would do whatever it took to get you back. But now... now I'll be in your life for our son. But I can't be anything more." She said and my heart broke. "I'm so sorry. I never should've left." I cried and she nodded. "You're right." She said softly and I looked away. The tears poured down my cheeks. Fuck.

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Three weeks later found me on Emma's porch. She moved back with our son officially a week ago. Or I would've met him as soon as she told me. I knocked on the door and when she opened it i teared up. It was the most beautiful sight seeing her holding our son, breastfeeding him. She smiled softly at me and moved to the side for me to come in. I came in and closed the door after me. "Meet Henry." She said softly and I looked up at her. She named him after my father when I wasn't even in the picture? I nodded. "He's beautiful." I said softly and she looked up at me and bit her lip. "You're also... so beautiful." I said softly and she blushed deeply. He pulled away and yawned before looking at me. I smiled at him. "Why don't you burp him?" She asked and i nodded. I took him from her and she put a burping cloth on my shoulder. I held him close and started patting his back, gently bouncing from side to side and she smiled at me after fixing her shirt and bra. "I'm your daddy, little guy." I said with a shaky voice. "You're so good with him.." She said and i looked up at her with tears in my eyes. I was so in love. And before now I didn't know it could be with two different people.

Several hours later, Emma put Henry down for a nap and came back to the living room. I was already standing up. We looked at each other for a few seconds before I opened my arms. "Come here." I whispered. She rushed into my arms and hugged me tightly. I hugged her tight and kissed her head. "I'm so in love with you." I whispered. "I'm in love with you too." She said sadly. I pulled away and caressed her cheek before leaning in and kissing her softly. When we pulled away for air, I smiled at her and leaned my forehead on hers. "We're going to be a family. I'm going to marry you. We're going to have more kids." I said and she nodded as she teared up. "I accept. To all." She said and I wiped my tears. "Good. Because I lost you once and I'll never do it again."

An: short and not very good. Oops. It's what came to me.