Au Revoir

5

Halloween is tomorrow.

The weeks just seem to fly by now.  Lilith met Alex, and we all get along great.

It was lunch time now and I had just gotten my food.  I walked to the table I usually sit at with Maddie plus her friends.  I would sit with Alex and Lilith, but Maddie forces me to sit with her and the 'populars' don't really like my friends.

When I sat down everyone automatically stopped talking and just sent side glares at me once and a while.

"So... what's new?"  I used my peppy voice trying to make the situation less awkward.
"Oh nothing.  We were just discussing how one of our friends is being a total bitch."  Maddie spoke sounding sassy.

"How so?"  I ask.

"She just has been ditching us for other people after all we have done for her, like giving her popularity and friends."  Lucy, one of Maddie's friends, answered.

I felt really dumb since I knew they were talking about me now, but I decided to continue playing dumb.

"Well that's a slap in the face.  I would do something about that if I were you."  After suggesting the revenge I continued to eat my sandwich. 

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"So then she tells me in this... I guess scary voice to get the fuck out."  We busted out laughing.

I was now at Lilith's doing homework and planning our costumes for tomorrow. 

"Did she honestly think you would start crying or something?"  Lilith wipes her eyes from laughing so hard.

"I don't know, but I don't really care to."  We spent about five minutes calming ourselves down.

"So, I have kind of an off topic question for you..."  Lilith said leaning her head on her shoulder giving me a cute look.  Then I remembered last week.

Last week was when I realized that I might have a crush on Lilith.  Ever since I middle school I've kind of been struggling with my sexuality, but it hasn't been a huge deal.  It's just more the fact that I don't know how to categorize myself.  When I started to realize my feelings about Lilith I decided to talk to Dan and Phil about it.

After talking with them for about forty-five minutes they helped my figure things out.  I'm bisexual.

"Shoot."  I bring myself from my thoughts and reply to Lilith.

"The question is do you have any crushes?"  My face drained of color, but after a couple seconds my cheeks flushed.  What do I say?

"Uh, yeah I guess I do."  I looked out her window, so we didn't have to make eye contact.

"Who?!"  Her head shot up.

"Someone who most likely doesn't feel the same."  Glancing at her she was twirling her blue hair with her finger.

"Then they are dumb."  She responded chuckling at herself.

"What about you?  Does anyone catch your eye?"  I turn to face her, and it was her turn to look somewhere else.  Why was she so adorable?  No!  You sound creepy, stop. 

"Yup. A girl that is really amazing, but doesn't realize it.  She has the best personality that I've seen, and her eyes are something you could get lost in for days."  Lilith and I made eye contact.

"She sounds really cool."  My heart kind of shattered, but not completely because if being with her crush made her happy I was okay with just being friends.