Au Revoir

15

After watching Alex drive off I take off my shoes and try to find my mom.  I wanted to see if I could get her to tolerate me.  Since I heard noises in the kitchen I decided to check there first.  My senses were right, she was there digging in the fridge.  

"Hey mom."  I greet her while leaning on the kitchen doorway.

She grunts and continues digging.  I wasn't going to give up.

"So, I'll be back home now.  The doctors said I should still take it easy though.  Having a weekend to relax before school will help.  Speaking of which tomorrow I won't be here.  I'm going to be hanging out with Alex."  This time she just totally blows me off, but grabs what she needed in the fridge then went to the counter.  

"What are you cooking?"  I decided to take a risk and walk next to her.  Right before I stand next to her my body makes almost a 180 degree turn.  She slapped me.

"Just leave me be you disgrace."  

I was hurt.  It felt like my heart cracked in half.  It wasn't that she screamed or slapped me.  It was the fact that a mother would say that to her own daughter with such genuine hate in her voice.  What did I even do? 

"Okay.  I'll leave you alone.  Come to my room if you want to talk."  I simply say as I walk out.  

My neck must have twisted a bit from the slap because I had a sharp pain running through my neck.  I went to the bathroom to get some ibuprofen.  After taking two and closing the medicine cabinet I look at my arms.  Recently I've been looking at them a lot since I was bored at the hospital.

There were so many scars.  Some deeper and worse than others, but still so many.  I wonder what made me do this.  I wish I remembered...

I make my way to my room to work on homework because I had a ton from the days I missed.  Although since I was music deprived for half a week I went to my stereo to put in a CD.  My selection seemed to be mostly rock music.  There was one album that caught my eye.

It said In This Moment and Black Widow.  I was interested, so I put it in.  

The music started playing and I walked over to my bed and sat.  I reach for my phone and see Becky texted a couple minutes ago.

BeckTheEffUp:  hey mate!  Alex told me you were home, what's up?

Me:  gonna start working on the mountain of homework I have, you?

BeckTheEffUp:  . ..  ...   nothing

Me:  WUT IS IT

BeckTheEffUp:  Okay so last week Monday I started talking to a person.  They are really sweet and stuff and actually in town this weekend for family matters..  we discussed meeting up and im really freaking nervous

Me:  AWwwwWW I need details!

BeckTheEffUp:  well.. his name is Kyle.  Originally Kylie, but he is trans ftm.  Kyle likes youtube, vines, sims, basically everything we do.  He plays saxophone which is cool.  Lives a city away from here.. so yeah..

Me:  I sHiP iT sO MUcH omG, Byle?  no..  Kycky?  UGH I suck at this

Me:  WAIT!  IT'S BELE!!

BeckTheEffUp:  ..stop

Me:  Send a picture of him

Homework completely slipped from my mind.  This was too amazing.  Her photo came through and what I saw shocked me.  It was the person I bumped into.  I just decided to not tell Becky since it's not like I really knew him or anything.  We talked for a bit longer then something happened.