A Girl In The Band

E I G H T E E N

Emily pov

After yesterday I was a little shaken up. But I woke up like any other day, and did shit for them I didn't even want to do in the first place.

I didn't know why I was just angry. I got out a pan and slammed it on the burner.

I sigh as I mutter things under my breath about how I don't don't want to be here, and I never wanted to be. All while doing that, I had made an egg.

Jack came down and gave me a worried look.

"What's wrong Blondie?" He asked concerned.

"Oh, it's not like I don't wanna be here." I say sarcastically.

"Are you still stuck up on that?" He asked sitting down.

"Aparently." I said washing the pan.

"Well, you shouldn't be." He said getting up. He stood behind me giving me chills.

He watched me clean the pan until I turned around annoyed at him.

"What do you want Jack?" I snapped.

"I want you to be happy." He said looking down. I just walked past him.
He grabbed my wrist. At this point the anger was so much I was starting to cry.

"Don't lead me on Jack. We aren't a thing. We can't be. We won't be. One day you love me, the next you look at Aspen like you wanna suck her tounge out of her mouth. For fucks sake." I say quietly.

"I never have wanted Aspen. The moment I saw you, yeah I was angry, but I thought you were beautiful. I tried to be rude, push you out, ignore you but I realized I actually love you. I need you. I've never needed someone so bad since my own mother. Listen. If you push me out, I'll come back. It's not a threat. It's a promise." He whisper yelled.

-

Today I feel mentally drained.

Zach just randomly came in my room today and we played monopoly and stuff.

"Jack said youree mad at him." He said.

"I just don't know. I've been mentally drained. The last time I loved someone they broke my heart. He is the definition of why I can't trust anyone and I don't mean the last person I dated. I mean Jack. He plays with me. He says he loves me but no one really does. I see it in his eyes. The same look the last person gave me. But for some reason I love him and it breaks my heart. He wants to be with me and I want to be with him, but he'll move on. And so will I. I just can't think about it anymore."

Jack's point of view. (Betchu didn't see that one coming.)

I was listening. The whole time.

I can't believe I made her like that. Not even half way through, I cried.

"I'm gonna go get a drink." Zach said as he walked out. He gave me a dirty look as he walked away. I barged into her room with tears streaming down her and I's face.

"I'm so sorry you have no clue." I said crying really hard.

"It's okay. Just no more games." She whispered kissing my head.

"Can I just as I you one question Emily?" I asked. I'm about to do it.

"What?" She questioned.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" I ask.

Emily pov

He just asked me to be his girlfriend. I don't know how to respond do I basically just kiss him. I don't really know how but he managed to carry me to lay on top on me in the bed.

He kissed down my neck and then hugged me, rolling me on top. I layed on top of him for a bit.

"I love you." He said.

"I love you too."

-

I went to the dance studio to just get out my emotions on something before Christina comes next week.

I go to some studio and just dance.

I don't care if it goes viral, or what.

-

I go home and see Jack. I just break down crying even though the rest of the boys were there. Jack came to me and hugged me. We rocked back and forth before we fell asleep upstairs.

There will be better chapters soon. Don't worry.