A Girl In The Band

T W E N T Y S I X

THAT VIDEO IS VERY FLASHY PLEASE BE CAREFUL.

Emily pov

I woke up on the floor. I guess that's what I get for sleeping in the bottom bunk. Also, Jonah kicks in his sleep and I can hear it in the bunk next to mine. Surprisingly, my back feels fine.

Nobody was up, so I quietly walked to the kitchen area. Zach was there. "Good morning beautiful." He said. "Morning." I said putting on a sweatshirt over my sports bra. "I like your sweatshirt." He said as I looked at it. "Sorry." I said taking it off, realizing it's his.

"No, keep it. You look cute in it." He said as I blushed. "Thanks." I replied and sat down. "You know. Since you and Jack aren't really talking.." he trailed off. "Absolutely not." I said already knowing what he was asking. "Please Emily. I promise you won't regret it." He pleaded.

"Only one circumstance." I said giving in. "Hm?" He hummed. "No one can know." I said. He smirked at me and got up, grabbing his bowl of oatmeal from the microwave. "Don't make me regret this." I said.

-

We all decided to go to a gym and play sports and work out and stuff with fans. Zach posted on Twitter that we were at a local gym in Georgia somewhere. If they can find us, they can hang out with us.

After about twenty minutes of waiting, a girl showed upo with her older brother I assumed.

"Hey." I said as the girl walked past me, completely ignoring her. I started to turn around when her brother pulled me by my shoulder. "Hey." He said smiling.

He was tall, like as tall as Jonah maybe taller, black, grayish green eyes, and scruff. "Hey." I said gasping at the same time. He smiled a perfect smile with white, strait teeth. "Wow you are a beautiful human being." I thought amazed.

"Thanks." He said chuckling. "Wait, did I say that outloud?" I asked. "Yeah." He said. "I see you like basketball." He said gesturing to the ball I was holding. "Yeah, and I dance too." I said.

"Nice." He said. "I'm gonna go head back if you wanna come. My band is back there too, that's why she probably wanted to come." I explained. "Yeah that's fine." He said as he followed me to the gym.

(Idk why this is important tok me but Emily is wearing what she's wearing in that dance video up there, also the video is flashy sok watch at your own risk)

"I never got your name." He pointed out, towering over me. "I'm Emily. You?" I asked. "Derrick." He replied. "I like that." I said smiling. He smiled at me too as I looked back, opening the door to the gym. I saw the boys and walked closer to them.

"Guys!" I hollered getting their attention. "Yeah?" Daniel asked. "I met this guy his name is Derrick and he's cute." I spit out. Daniel looked at me and laughed.

"Damn it." I muttered. "He's right behind me isn't he?" I asked. "Well, you led the way." He said laughing at me. I laugheed too.

-

"ZACH! How many times do I have to tell you, Derrick didn't even give me his number, instagram, nothing. For all I know he could've been that girls dad!" I yelled at him. "BUT YOU STILL TALKED TO HIM!" He yelled complaining. I shifted my weight to one side and crossed my arms. "I'm gonna say this once. And only, once Zach. We are not together. We have whatever you want to call... benefits. That's it." I snapped.

"And at this point, I don't even care what y'all want to think of me. No one even cares for me. Nobody talks to me, looks at me, no one really cheers when I sing on stage and to be honest... I only did this for the money. And not even in a greedy way. I needed that money but now it's too much. It was getting better but now I just want to go home. You're mad at me, Jack won't talk to me and I understand Jack but why are y'all questioning me?! We are a family. Well, we should be and I'm really fucking tired of being the girl in this damn band." I cried so everyone on the bus could hear.

"Don't you understand!?" I yelled.

"NO ONE LIKES ME!" I cried.

"Why didn't you tell us sooner?" Jack asked. "Because I didn't want to let you guys down. I was afraid y'all would hate me too." I said. "We could never. You're the closest I've ever been with a girl besides my sisters." Jonah admitted.

"I appreciate that now but when you saw I was changing why did you ask me if I was okay?" I asked. "Just that would've been better than ignoring me and my issues." I said sniffling. By now, they're all circled around the floor with me.

"I didn't know what to say." Daniel said. I shook my head and rolled my eyes, then restted my head in my hands, giving out a choppy sigh.

"I'm pathetic. But every. Single. Day. I have to say I'm fine. I'm not. Im not okay. I want people to like me as much as I used tok love myself but I don't think I do any more. So, I guess I'm litterally asking for it.

"Emily why didn't you tell me you didn't want to?" Corbyn asked. "I fucking did. Multiple fucking times corbyn but you never listened." I responded. "Emily I'm really, really sorry. I really wanted you to be happy. I wanted you to be a part of this." Corbyn said. "If you want to leave we understand." Jonah said and they all agreed.

I sighed.

"Um..."