I Found Him On My Doorstep <3

Why can't we be normal?

All three of us got into the house and went to our rooms, by the time we had gotten back it was dark and I was knackered after all the events of today. It was really quiet as Adam was staying at a friend’s house tonight. I looked over at Cody who had just flopped onto my bed while I stood in the doorway. I thought about how much my life has changed over the past couple of days and it’s all because of this one boy. He looked at me funny.

“Have I got something on my face?” he asked lifting his hand to touch his face. I laughed and jumped on top on him. We started laughing and carrying on, trying to push each other of the bed and tickling each other. It made us forget about the emotion wreck that our lives are.

“If you two don’t shut up I’m coming in there.” My mum called through the wall. We muffled our laughs and lay down beside each other. I wonder what she thinks we are doing.

“Have you ever wondered what it would be like if we had normal lives and lived like normal people with normal problem and normal living arrangements?” asked Cody. I laughed.

“Well we used to do that. It’s not that long ago that those things changed to be like this.” I pointed towards me and him.

“I guess but I just can’t remember what it’s like to live normally because I haven’t done in nearly four years.”

“Put it this way, if you hadn’t have done what you did you never would have found me” I smiled at him and he smiled back. A real smile that stretched from ear to ear.

“Thank the lord for my short temper” I raised his hands towards the ceiling and I laughed again.

“The teachers are going to ask us so many questions tomorrow” I sighed not wanting to even think about going back to school tomorrow.

“Why?” Cody said with raised eyebrows.

“Well do you not think that us both being off for only one day and living in the same house is going to look suspicious?” I replied.

“I guess you’re right” He rolled over onto his side and faced me and just looked at me.

“What? Is there something on my face?” I asked mocking him.

“Ha funny ha ha” he replied.

“You love me” I laughed back. Did I really just say that?

“Yes I do and you’re lucky. Not many people get to experience my love.” He smiled back really cheesy.

We were silent for a while. I like the silence between us, it just shows that we don’t need words to communicate with each other. We just feel what the other it feeling. I rolled into his warmth getting drowsy. I could hear his soft snores and chuckled falling into a comforting sleep knowing that he was just behind me.

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I woke up the next morning to find my bed empty. I automatically looked at my phone. I had a missed call from an unknown number which was odd because no one has my number apart from mum, peter and lily. Peter or lily probably pranked me to get back at me for basically ditching them. How immature. I’m still really annoyed with them. Can I not have other friends? I didn’t see the problem.

I got up to find Cody eating his cereal in the dinning room with my mum at the table, they were speaking enthusiastically. He had his back turned to me so I was quiet trying to sneak up on him.

“So Cody” My mum started. “Do you like Toni? I’ve noticed that you two have gotten very close in your short stay here. Especially last night, I got up to check that you two had finally went to sleep and you were both tucked up in the same bed cuddled together. I’ve never seen her trust someone this quickly and easily but with you it’s a completely different story”

I stopped dead in my tracks. I could feel the blood rushing to my cheeks. Why was she asking him this? Of course he only likes me as a friend. He thought about his answer carefully.

“I care very much for Toni. I have an uncontrolled feeling to protect her from every bad thing that can harm her. I want to make her happy and keep the bad thoughts away. I want her to never have to worry about anything ever again. I have feelings for her but I don’t know if I would want to ruin our friendship just to satisfy them.” My eyes started watering. I had never had anyone say this about me before.

I felt the same way towards him. I wanted to stop him from thinking about how bad a person he thinks he is for doing what he did in America and for doing drugs and getting drunk almost every night. I wanted to protect him from everyone who has anything to say about his past. I want him to be happy but do I want to ruin our relationship? I like what we have now and I don’t want to lose him.

I wiped my eyes and opened the cupboards and started clattering bowls to let them hear that I was there.

“Morning Toni” mummy said and winked at me. She knew I heard what they said but Cody didn’t.

“Uh...H-hi Toni” Cody Stuttered. I laughed and took my cereal into the dinning room and sat opposite him.

“Morning” I replied to both of them sounding cheery. The thing was though I am in a good mood.

“I’ll let you two eat” mummy said and got up from the table. She looked at me again and smiled. Yup, she definitely knew that I had heard.

I started eating and Cody just looked at me. What? I ignored him and continued eating while trying to keep a smile of my face.

“Come on” I said once I was finished. “We have to get ready to go to school”

“Ughhhh, I’ve only been there one day and I already hate it” I chuckled at him but in side I felt the same way.