Who to Choose? ~BadBoy!Suga X Fem!Reader X Player!RM~

Chapter 26 - It's Going Down

Here we are, back to the original story. Man, it really feels like that back story lasted forever. Let's go!

Your POV

"Jin?"

"H-Hey, (Y/N)..." He picks up what he dropped. "I didn't expect you to be here, or to see you so soon, or... Oh, words are hard now."

I can't even smile. It's been years and the last thing I did to him was horrible. I destroyed him because he got hurt because of me. I destroyed him to make sure he stayed away from me. I made sure he had that fear that I instilled in everyone else.

"Jin, I..." I fade away, unable to look into his eyes. The pain cuts just as sharply as it did all those years ago.

"I never got to tell you before you pushed me away, you know. My parents wanted me to go to America for college. I was going to work things out with you, but then that thing happened." He grabs my shoulders, just like he used to. "I'm sorry for leaving you."

"N-No," I say, pushing his hands off. "I thought you disappeared because of what I said. It's not your fault, it's mine. I was the one who caused us to fall into that place."

His hands fall to his sides and open and close continuously. "I lost contact with you and couldn't return here for years... That is my fault. I should have tried harder to find you, but I had no way."

"If you tried so hard to find me, why were your eyes full of fear that day? That night, why were you scared. You said you loved me. You knew how I was, why did that day suddenly work?" I could feel the buried feelings digging up like old wounds. "Why were you so scared of who I was?"

"(Y/N), I was scared for you. I could see how you were killing yourself." He pulls me into an embrace I can't get out of. "I'm so happy you're okay."

Isolated. Alone. Depressed. Ridiculed. Solitary. All of those feelings I had felt after he disappeared seemed so stupid. He was fine. He wasn't scared of me. It was Jin and he was here.

"Why now?" I ask, tears leaking out of my eyes as I gripped his shirt, my hands balled on his chest. "Why not sooner in the past? Years have passed, Jin..."

He tightens his arms, reassuring. "I didn't have the funds. I finally got out here when I was on a break."

"(Y/N)? Who is that?"

I immediately push him away, wiping my eyes. Jungkook stands there, eyeing Jin. Then he looks at me, wiping my eyes, and anger fills his features.

"You have ten seconds to explain why she's crying or you're dying tonight."

Jin lifts his hands and panic fills his features. "I, um, I'm sorry?"

Jungkook steps forward and grabs Jin's collar. "Wrong answer."

I grab Jungkook's shoulders and shove him away, my tears dry. "He's someone I knew in high school, alright? Calm down, Jungkook."

Jungkook fixes his jacket violently. "If he's from high school, that's all the more reason for me to kill him."

"No! He helped me get back from that horrible place! He's why I quit smoking."

Jungkook's shoulders fall, the anger gone. "The first or second time?"

I stutter as I think of the answer. If Jungkook finds out Jin's why I became even lower, from right after he disappeared, Jungkook will kill him.

"I'm going to say the first time, as we were separated shortly after graduation."

Jungkook had his hands angrily on his hips. "Are you also the reason she fell back down? I swear, if you are..."

"Yes," I say, standing defensively in front of Jin, "he's the reason I became suicidal, Jungkook. Either way, I'm out of that. Can we go back inside? It's cold."

Jungkook huffs and grips his hair before finally releasing his hand. "Fine. But you're explaining to Jimin why we were outside so long."

I turn back to Jin, expecting him to come in with us.

"I couldn't possibly, especially after screwing up on meeting your family for the first time. Just, call me, okay?" He pulls out a marker and writes his new number on my hand. "The Korean one for calling my parents. I'll see you later, okay?"

I nod and watch his back as he leaves. It hurt all over again to watch him disappear. He looked good, even better than he had in high school. I wanted to see his arm, how it healed. I wanted to see him again, but I had to explain first. As such, I turned to Jungkook and went in with him.

Jimin looked up from his mochi. "What's up? You guys look uncomfortable."

"Well?" Jungkook looked at me, expectantly.

"I met someone from my past. The guy who taught me how to kiss and stuff like that..."

Jimin dropped his spoon. "You're not innocent anymore?"

Jungkook raised his eyebrows, looking at me. "Is he right?"

"No!" I yell, then I pause to quiet down. "We never got that far, alright? We only dated for more than one year. We didn't even hit two years before everything fell apart."

I run a hand through my hair, trying to tie my thoughts together.

"Why is he so important to you, huh?" Jungkook asked, putting his credit card into the check.

"He looked at who I was and accepted that without trying to fix me... He let it happen naturally, knowing that I could come back by myself."

Jimin's eyes were cast down. "I didn't even know that someone so important was in your life..."

I rest a hand on his shoulder. "I didn't tell anyone because I was afraid of what would happen. Then it happened and I hated myself." I pause and lean back in my seat. "Then I started college and vowed that I wouldn't smoke, wouldn't do drugs, and wouldn't race. For you guys."

Jungkook gets up. "Then, how about, for us, we go home and sleep. Then, maybe, if I'm in a good mood tomorrow, we'll go somewhere."

Jimin and I both smile.

"Then let's hope you're in a good mood tomorrow," I say.

~~~~~

He was not in a good mood. None of us were. Jimin was panicking. I was scared, wondering what the hell happened.

There was a mess everywhere. The couch was flipped, the kitchen was a mess, and Jungkook's room was trashed. I had never seen such a disaster in my own apartment, even when there was beer and cigarettes everywhere.

To make matters worse?

Jungkook himself was missing.

Hehehehehehe, CLIFF HANGER. I love these, they're so fun! Sorry it was so short, I just didn't really know how to continue, and I also just really wanted a cliff hanger. I just hope you enjoyed! I'll see you in the next chapter! Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!