The Only Reason (5SOS)

VIII. Perplexity

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perplexity (noun): a confused feeling that you have because you cannot understand something, someone or a certain situation

-Jess's POV-

I was taken aback by the sudden contact of Luke's lips on mine. The butterflies forming in my stomach told me this was what I wanted all along. I smiled into the kiss and looped my arms around his neck. Luke snaked his arms around my waist, pulling us closer together. I rushed my hand through his silky hair, tugging gently at the ends. His tongue ran over my lower lip, asking for entrance which I immediately granted. 

Our lips molded together as our tongues explored each other's mouths. I felt a heating sensation pump through my bloodstream as our bodies remained in contact. I gripped his hair once more, trying to release the energy stored in me somehow. The kiss had gotten so balmy and intense that I felt like I was about to burst into flames. Moments later, Luke pulled away with a confused expression on his face. I smiled at him seductively but he didn't mirror it. My smile faded as he parted his lips to speak.

"We shouldn't." He stated bluntly with no change of emotion whatsoever.

"Why?" I blurted, confused as hell.

-Luke's POV-

"Why?" Jess asked quietly but rapidly.

No doubt, she was an amazing kisser and that was certainly the best kiss of my life, but it was wrong. It was eating away at me, especially now, because I wanted her so badly but she was off limits. The feeling I had gotten from kissing her only proved that she was the one for me. But what was I supposed to do when there were so many things standing in our way?

"You're Harry's sister, part of the bro code says never date your friend's sister." The lie escaped my mouth before I even had the chance to think over what I was saying. However, the hurt expression on her face only confirmed that she believed it.

"I'm sure Harry would approve if you asked him. He didn't mind me dating Liam for a while, but that crashed and combusted like wildfire." She explained. Why was she making this harder than it had to be? How was I supposed to let her down easy?

"I don't want to risk my friendship with Styles and the rest of the boys. I'm sorry." I simply stated. Only half of my explanation was true. I would do anything for her without any hesitation. Jess's eyes watered a little, bus she didn't let the tears slip.

"Of course you wouldn't want to take such a huge risk for a girl like me. I mean, why would you?" She asked fiercely. As soon as those words discharged from her mouth, she crossed her arms over her chest and stared out of the window. 

"Jess, I-" I began but she lifted her hand to silence me.

"Save it, Luke." She snapped, looking at her well-kept and manicured nails instead of me.

I knew I fucked up big time. I hoped that I had a chance with her after the tour with One Direction but the odds of that happening now were below zero. This beauty sitting beside me was never going to be mine and I had to learn to accept that. That was life, you don't always get what you believe you want. I didn't only believe I wanted Jess, I knew I wanted her. She was already mixed in with the blood running through my veins and I had no idea how to get her out, but I knew I eventually had to.

*THE NEXT DAY*

-Jess's POV-

I was on my laptop, reblogging random pictures on Tumblr and WeHeartIt when Michael walked in. He waltzed over and sat next to me, glancing suspiciously at my screen.