It hurts me to love you...

The pain that I feel in my chest diminished

Jimin's POV
We all went to our rooms after my little breakdown on the couch. I noticed that Jin and Namjoon-hyung didn't enter their rooms. Rather they were whispering about something to each other. Jin-hyung looked agitated while Namjoon-hyung tried to placate him with soft whispered words. Before I could go their way I saw Jin-ssi stalk off angrily and leave a perplexed Namjoon back. What was going on? I didn't get any more time to wonder about it, because Taehyung grabbed my arm and dragged me off to his room. When we entered I saw that his bed was unmade and his room was a mess. It made me giggle slightly, when Tae heard that he turned over, pleased. Aaaah, Tae my adorable idiot alien! I loved him so, so so much, but I wasn't in love with him. "...minnie, Jiminnie! You alright hyung?!" He asked me, worried. I smiled softly, but before I could give an unconvincing yes as an answer he shook his head. "Don't try and lie to me Jiminnie! I know you better than the rest of them! You may be able to fool them, but not me! So tell me what happened between you and Kookie?" He looked concerned. Just when I wanted to answer his question, I felt my throat tighten up all of a sudden. Tears build up in my eyes and began streaming uncontrollably down my face. Shit! This was the second time today that I cried in front of Tae! Before I could stand up and walk away he pulled me back and hugged me tight to his chest while whispering soft sweet nonsense words into my hair. When I tried pulling away weakly he shushed me and positioned both of us in the spooning position on his bed. I was the little spoon and felt comforted by his warmth and scent that surrounded me. I can't pinpoint it when, but somewhere in-between him whispering softly and his soft cherry scent I fell into a deep dreamless sleep.

Jin's POV
After the scene that Jungkook pulled and Jimin's heartbreaking tears, we went up to our rooms. There I decided that it was time to man up and pull Namjoon aside. He was supposed to be the leader and to guarantee that there won't be any tension between the members. He clearly hasn't been doing his job, aish that dongsaeng! He never listened to my advice, that mIsTeR IQ oF 148, he thought because he was the smartest that he knew everything there is to know! But I'm older and have more life experience, thank you very much! So I cornered him when we went upstairs.

" Namjoon-ah, can you come with me, I want to talk to you." " But hyung! I'm tired and can't it wait? Is it urgent?!" He seemed extremely annoyed. Normally I would leave him the fuck alone when he was being salty, but not today !(A/N 😏😏😏)

So I replied tersely with: " Namjoon-ssi...you and I need to talk in private. And yes it's an urgent matter." He frowned, but nodded slowly. He knew that I wasn't joking around, I never called him ' Namjoon-ssi' unless things got serious. He followed me, albeit slow and unwanting, till we came to a stop in front of my door. I took a deep breath and turned around slowly on the balls of my feet. He looked like he wanted to get this done and over with, that irritated me. The last time he seems really like he's forcing himself to be in my company. That irks me really bad. So when I saw his face with that impatient expression on I felt my eyebrow twitch in annoyance, but I told myself to keep calm, bitch.

" Have you noticed the tension between our Mochi and Jungkookie?" I asked him. He sighed before replying: " Hyung let them be! They're still young, it's just their hormones working up!" My eyebrow twitched again, more violently than the first time. Keeping my cool will be harder than expected. " Joon, the way they act is hardly normal. Ever since Jungkook pushed that dude off of Jimin, he's being salty to everyone else and flat out ignoring Chim! Don't you see how much that hurts him? He was even crying, the pour soul!" I shrieked at him. I was getting agitated with his unimpressed attitude towards this matter. He sighed, rubbed his eyes and looked at me like I am a dumb child before saying : " Hyung, you're older now, you don't understand! Jungkook's testosterone is just working up, it's nothing serious, I mean Chim probably broke down today because of the stress and Jungkookie was probably confused to see his innocent hyung in that compromising position with a strange man." He tried to placate me. It didn't work, instead it made my anger burn harder and it seemed to cook up my insides. The audacity! " Namjoon-ssi, I don't care about any of your dumb conclusions. I want you to go and talk to them and take proper care of this problem like the leader that you're so proud to be! So grow a pair and actually ask them before pulling these unhelpful conclusions!" I raged at him. He opened his mouth, yet I interrupted him before he was able to make a sound. " I DON'T CARE! Don't even try to talk to me before you have tried and helped them! Understood?!"
He frowned at me and I saw raw anger simmering in his dark eyes. He hated it when his dominance was questioned. To be honest at the moment I could care less about his masculinity so I asked him again, with a tone of finality in my voice :
" Understood, Namjoon-ssi?!" He nodded numbly at me, but I had already turned away and marched straight into my room while I slammed the door closed hard behind my back. My courage had left me as I slid down the door slowly with shaky knees while I felt a single tears rolling down my left cheek.