It hurts me to love you...

Once upon a time, I was able to love...

Jimin's POV

How dare he! How dare he mock me!
Jungkook, why do you do this? Why do you like seeing me hurt this much?

I can't stand this no more. My heart, that I thought had gotten numb, beat painfully in my chest everytime I saw, or even brushed by Jungkook.

The tension between us has gotten so noticable and bad that it put everyone else on edge too. I tried acting normal, but after that event, after that he bit me, after what he said... it all changed. Taehyung did try to help and alleviate the suffocating atmosphere by being extra dorky and clingy towards me, but it seemed like it had the opposite effect on Jungkook.

Everytime that someone, a male specifically, touched me for more than 3 seconds Jungkook would get irritated and throw a tantrum.

I don't get him. I don't get him at all

===Flashback, after the hickey===

How dare he? Even after he said that he found me disgusting he goes on and does that! I don't know what to think of his actions anymore, so I storm all panicked into Jin-hyung's room. I didn't expect the sight that I was met with.He didn't expect me either, that was clear because he was half sitting in Namjoon-hyung's lap, with his hands in his hair and with swollen pink glistening lips,while Namjoon-hyung's hands were laying on his hips.

From the sheer awkwardness of the situation, I ended up muttering a quick and unintelligible apology before slamming the door and stalking of towards my own room.

Wow, this was certainly a new development, but I couldn't think long about them before my own problems came back to haunt my ass. I sighed deeply, trying and failing to calm myself down.
I ended up having no sleep that night.

When I woke up the next morning, it was because I felt someone stroking my hair softly. " Taehyung-ah, what are you doing this early in the morning? It's our day off, let me sleep!" I grumbled into my sheets, while I turned my back towards the stranger in my room.
The stroking stopped suddenly before I felt my bed dip softly, just when I turned around to see why Taehyung was being a little shit at the crack ass of dawn, my breath got stuck in my chest.

This was not Taehyung. Oh, no this was certainly not Taehyung.

"What are you doing in my room, Jungkook-ssi?" I managed to stutter at him while I tried to slink as secretly as possible away from him on the bed.. He frowned when he noticed me backing away before he decided to just grab me by the waist and tugging me back in place.

I was petrified, what did he want from me? Why was he playing with my feelings like this? Didn't he realize that I was hurting because of his indecisiveness?

"Jin-hyung said that he needed to talk with you...he said that it was important.." he said all of that absentmindedly while looking at a piece of skin on my neck. A little too late I realised that it was the place where he had bit me yesterday. I felt my blood rush to my head at that sudden realisation of mine, but before I could open my mouth to mouth him of he spoke ;" Jiminnie, know that he ain't worth you, he's not and never will be able to love you the right way, the way you deserve. No will be able to do that, no one but m-" He stopped abruptly and froze.

Before I could even react he sprung up and vanished from my room, like he was Haudini or something.

What the he-

===End flashback===

After that night we hadn't talked and time didn't stay still either. We had to practice, practice and practice. At the same time I had to think about our new album. Our new photoshoots.

But all the stress came to a head one day when I decided that I needed something from the backroom during a short practice break. I don't even remember why I decided to go to that room or if I even really needed to get something or not, but I couldn't stand the tense atmosphere in the dancing room anymore so to go there or to stay in that suffocating room. The backroom seemed like the lesser of two evils, so my choice was made quickly.

With my flimsy and transparent excuse I managed to fool our dance teacher and slipped out of the dancing room. When I left I felt six pairs of eyes following me.

My feet led me to the backroom without me even thinking about it, but just when I arrived there someone grabbed my arm.

Out of panick I wanted to scream but that person put their other hand over my mouth and tugged me into the dark and stuffy room. I tried fighting them of, but relaxed a little when I heard a smooth voice next to my ear.
" Calm down Jiminnie, I'm not gonna do anything bad to you... I promise" Sooyoung whispered sweetly.

But while his voice was sweet I smelled the pungent smell of alcohol on him.

"Sooyoung-ah, could you please let go of me?" I asked timidly. Because I knew one thing for sure and that was that Sooyoung-ah could lose all rationality when drunk. So I tried to be slick, but he wasn't dumb, even in his inebriated state.

"Why should I? If been waiting to do you for months, months! And everytime you tell me I'm not ready to do it again and I'm scared, but I bet that you'll let that doe-eyed boy fuck you anytime, won't you?" He whispered harshly into my ear.

I had known that he was jealous of Jungkook, but this was the first time that he acted this aggressively towards me, I shivered and felt tears beginning to mar my skin. I couldn't breath, I felt suffocated. Why didn't he let me go? Let me breath?

" But I bet you that I could make you feel better than that baby-Alpha boy could!" He breathed into my skin, while trying to mouth at my neck, fuck this was scary. What should I do? What should I do?

" I have far more experience than that little boy, he could never please you, or satisfy you the way I did!" After I heard that I tried pushing him of but he pinned my wrists to the wall, then I felt someone ripping Sooyoung off of me. It was Jungkook. How long had he been here? How much did he hear?

Sooyoung had tensed for a moment before just continuing talking like nothing happened, but now he turned his words towards Jungkook.

"Ah, so is it him that you're letting fuck you now? I'll tell you Jungkook-ssi, even though he looks like an innocent angel he's a little devil in bed." "Stop!" I screamed at him. "But why? Shouldn't your new boyfriend know how to please you?" With that he smugly walked away.

Jungkook would have attacked Sooyoung if the leader hadn't come in at that moment.

Then a manager came by and yelled at us to get back in the practice room.

Fuck, fuck, fuck!

Tbc...

A/n: So peeps I just finished reading this book and it was amazing! The name of the book is " Carry on " and it's written by "Rainbow Rowell" I really recommend it. It'll be worth your while if you like reading! I promise!
But that aside I'm sorry for the late update on this story... I promise that I'll update it more frequently!

For now kisses and hugs my dear readers, till the next chapter 😍😍😘😘😘

- your dear writer 😉😉