It hurts me to love you...

Why does my heart still beat for him?

Yoongi's POV

I kissed him.
I finally kissed him.

It honestly felt so good, like a weight has been taken off my shoulders. It felt so good not having to hide my feelings for him anymore. But after the sudden rush of euphoria, reality came back to haunt me.

Shit.
Shit, fuck.

He knew. Now he knew.

Sweat began pouring out of my pores, while I leaned against the door at the outside of my own room. And tears began cascading down my cheeks. That's how Jimin found me a while later.

When he saw me like that he froze, before taking me by the hand and dragging my numb body towards Hoseok's and his room. To my surprise he didn't sit me down on his bed but brought me towards their bathroom.

There he urged me to take a seat on the closed toilet seat.

I sat down and looked at him. Really looked at him and for the first time this night I noticed his disheveled state.

His eyes were red around the rim and probably hurting from crying too much. His hands were trembling and his cheeks looked more sunken in than they did last time. His overall body frame seemed smaller than I remembered it to be 3 weeks ago.

I frowned and opened my mouth to ask him why he looked that way, but he shook his head no, like he knew that I was gonna comment on his state.

Author's POV

Yoongi swallowed harshly and ran a hand across his face before sighing and looking somewhere above Jimin's head. He couldn't stand the look that had taken over Jimin's eyes. He felt as if Jimin was trying to dissect him.

After a 10 minutes long, tense silence Jimin turned around towards the mirror and sighed before deciding to speak up.

" Hyung, why were you crying in the hallway?"

His voice sounded soft and paperthin, almost inaudible, that it took Yoongi a minute to react.

" Jiminnie, I can ask you the same thing, why were you crying so much that your eyes are bloodshot?"

Yoongi cast back.

Jimin tensed up for a moment before responding.

" Hyung, right now this is not about me. This is about you! I saw how you entered your room with Hobi-Hyung, after that I saw you crying on the floor in the hallway and Hobi-Hyung nowhere in sight!"

Jimin almost screamed this at Yoongi, making Yoongi shook. Getting Jimin mad was a really difficult task, but once you succeeded you wouldn't be disappointed.

Yoongi swallowed difficulty, before answer with a small voice.

" Jiminnie... I told him. "

Jimin tensed up, before releasing a deep breath that he didn't know he kept in.

Then Yoongi-hyung's words replayed in his mind a couple of times, before he abruptly turned around with wide eyes staring shocked at his Hyung.

" You mean, you told him about that? Oooh, Hyung I don't know what to say I mean-"

Before Jimin could finish his sentence Yoongi interrupted him by answering the underlying question.

" He rejected me...Jimin-ah"

Yoongi's voice trembled and his tears began streaming ,harder than before, down his red cheeks.

Jimin automatically stepped towards his crying Hyung, hugging him while whispering sweet nothings into his hair, trying to make him calm down.

But with Yoongi's confession it seemed as if a dam was broken inside of the black haired beauty.

In between his sobbing and shivering he told Jimin everything, how he felt and how he coped. And also that it got to be too much.

" Jiminnie, I loved him since the beginning you know? I saw his talent, his capacities when no one else was there to pay him any mind. I comforted him when the 'fans' were rude and brash towards him, I was there when he experienced his first love, I was there when he experienced his first real heartbreak, for all of his negative and positive moments I was there by his side....but he never seemed to acknowledge me"

Jimin listened to his Hyung letting his feelings be known, he listened and comforted him while also silently crying on the inside.

He rubbed his back gently and hugged him tighter, not being able to find the words to make him calm down, hoping that this would be enough, because to be honest he was the same.

They were the same in ways he wouldn't have expected.

He hoped with all of his might that his Hyung wouldn't end up like himself, with a brat that didn't understand what they wanted. Because while Hobi was more experienced in the ways of life than Jungkook, he himself still was a brat at heart.

And Jimin also knew that Hoseok and Jungkook resembled each other in the same way he and Yoongi did.

He just hoped that this situation would fix itself sooner rather than later, because he didn't think that he was strong enough to hold on for much longer.

Tbc...

A/n: my dear readers I'm so so so sorry for this late ass chapter, but tbh I don't have an excuse.... I was just being a lazy potato, I also know that this is a relatively short chapter but I hope that y'all still were able to enjoy it. Next chapter will have Jhope's POV of the situation and Taehyung plotting to save his friends relationship...👀👀👁👀👀

- M-M D.