It hurts me to love you...

The pain that I feel in my chest and where it really began...

===Continuation of flashback===

He was tall. At least 3 inches taller than me. He had broad shoulders, defined muscles and a manly face. He wore a faded leather jacket and light blue, almost white, jeans. He resembled  him him so much that it hurt. I trembled when he turned around and our eyes locked.

No, they weren't the same I realised...where Jungkook's eyes held empathy and compassion, this man's eyes were cold and without any emotion inside. Just like a snake. And on a closer look it seemed that he had a tattoo on his neck. A tattoo of an anaconda...a shiver ran down my back when I realized that he came towards me, I gulped.

He was coming closer and closer. I began to see the differences... He was a little shorter and less bulkier than Jungkook. Yet he had beautiful brown eyes. Even though they were empty, it was like he was screaming for help, from the inside out...
He intrigued me...

He sat down next to me and casually put his arm around the back of my chair. I tensed up. "Jimin-ssi, don't worry, I come in peace. I come offering you a drink, what do you say?" he whispered softly into my ear. I almost didn't hear him over the beat of the music. After a terse 2min silence I nodded slightly. He chuckled and proceeded to call the bartender over and asking for two drinks. I don't remember what he ordered, but there must have been some kind of alcohol inside of it, because then I did something that I would never have done had I been sober...

I went home with a stranger without telling anyone were I was...

I only remember flashes of what happened. Sooyeong pushing me down on the bed, his hands roaming over my chest. Hands removing my pants, a bottle of cherry lube and cherry flavored condoms. Stinging pain, grunts and screams, me trying to push him off...then nothing but darkness.

The following morning I woke up with a headache, a sore ass and a numb feeling in my heart. Why did I let this happen? What was I thinking, I should go now that he's still asleep.

But before I could stand up, someone grabbed my wrist tightly. It was Sooyeong... He frowned and said with a husky voice:" Jimin-ah, were do you think that you're going?"

I gulped anxiously and tried to smile softly at him. He got an angry look and hus grip on my wrist tightened. " Jimin-ah, don't you remember that you agreed to be mine!" he bit out. I whimpered pathetically in response and tried to withdraw my throbbing wrist. But he didn't let go. I began hyperventilating and passed out after a minute.

5 weeks later and I still didn't know how to break it off with him, he was extremely possessive over me. He tried to hit me once but I ran from him. After that I tried to avoid him as much as possible. He tried to drug me once or twice too, but he never succeeded. But I knew that if I didn't break it off soon his patience and my luck would run out.

Thus, queue back to the moment where Sooyeong had me pinned against the wall and Jungkook saved me.

That particular day Sooyeong had been extremely tense and sexually frustrated. He tried coming onto me, but I always pushed him away, had Jungkook not come in when he did, I don't know what I would have done.

===Official end flashback===

What I still don't get is why Jungkookie was so mad with me? Didn't he tell me himself to go and find someone else?

I'm so confused....

Tbc...