Dear Diary,
Ang sama ng tingin sa akin ni Joanne lalo na nung malaman niya na hindi fake ang kasal namin ni Anya. Feeling ko kakainin niya ako ng buhay. At bago siya nag walk out may sinabi siyang tumagos sa buto at kalamnan ko.
“Paolo, I never thought that you are this coward. Bakit hindi mo ligawan si Anya? Why can’t you be man enough to face her and woe her and tell her how you really feel? Why would you resort to this kind of foolishness? Do you think that you could pull this off and that Anya will have you for this? Well, I have big news for you brother, because of what you’ve done, you’ve only shown what a coward you are and Anya would hate you for this.”
Tapos nag walkout ang buntis. Pero naman! Natamaan ako sa sinabi niya.
Tapos itong si Johann, ito ang sinabi?
“Sabihin mo ang totoo and face the consequence of your action.Magpakatotoo ka.”
Fuck!
Oo na dear diary, gustong gusto ko na sabihin sa kanya pero hindi ko alam kung papaano? Parang masisiraan na ako ng ulo kakaisip.
Kaya bago pa ako mabaliw, kinuha ko na ang cellphone ko at ginawa ang sinabi ng kakambal ko at tinext si Anya.
“Tonight is our wedding night, why aren’t you in my bed, wife?” Kinakabahan pa ako habang itnataype ko yan dear diary pero sabi nga ni Johann magpakatotoo daw ako.
Nagreply agad siya Dear diary at mukhang maganda ang mood niya.
“It’s because, our marriage is not real, my so-called husband.” She called me husband dear diary. Kinikilig ako. Wooohhh!
“What if it is real wife?” Nanginginig pa ata ang kamay ko habang tinatype ko yan. Putcha!
Nakakakaba.
“There is an “if” in your question. And stop flirting with me Paolo. Kailangan ko nang magpahinga.”
“Anya, our marriage is real, I’m serious.”
Pikit mata kong sinend ang message dear diary. Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko. Ngayon alng ako nakaramdam ng ganitong nerbiyos.
Naghintay ako ng reply mula sa kanya pero lumipas ng 30 minutes, 1 hour at mahigit pa pero walang reply mula kay Anya.
Habang tumatagal, lalong bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
Then my phone started ringing….
Anya calling….
What now dear diary?
What now?
Shivering in the dark,
Paolo
P.S. Ang kanta ngayon ay: Tell him (dapat ata her)
I'm scared, so afraid to show I care
Will she think me weak if I tremble when I speak?
Ooh, what if there's another one she's thinking of?
Maybe she's in love, I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel, I don't know what to do…
