it breaks my heart (karmagisa) || Complete

wild hearts

Nagisa's POV:
I walked the streets going to his house, not knowing what to expect, I left the house without seeing Asano the driver told me he left, why did he leave without saying anything? Was it something urgent? Maybe I'll call him after this forced visit, I found myself in front of the door staring at it, why am I not knocking? I'm scared of what's going to happen in there, come on just knock, I lifted my arm and knocked on the door it was so faint that I doubted he heard it at first but he did as I heard his footsteps coming, I took a deep breath as he opened the door, I awkwardly said: hey k-karma, collect yourself for gods sake I thought, trying to not make this more awkward than it already is, he said hi back and we walked in...

Karma's POV:
He actually came, I'm kind of freaking out right now, it's okay just breath and sit on the couch, we both are sitting now in the most awkward silence ever, so are you actually gonna talk? Nagisa snapped at me, I took a deep breath and began talking: listen I know the whole deal about you not wanting to hurt me and that our relationship is dangerous for my future, but honestly I know this will sound cliche but I can't see my future without you, you're all I think about every single day, every single hour and every single minute just please tell me what can I do to get you back, you know I never beg but I'm begging for you to tell me what to do right now, you're the love of my life for fuck sake, I can't live like this anymore, just please say something...

Nagisa's POV:
After what he said I sighed deeply, I heard him say: just be selfish for once in your life, he tried to sound tough but he was obviously trying to hold back tears, I looked at him and said: it's been tough for me too, you never left my mind and you never will but I'm always scared that I'll break you, it's like every time I touch you I'm just placing some of my miserable life on you and I can't live with myself if you become like me, broken, depressed, useless, not being able to see you smile because of me hurts me, I wanna be selfish but I can't allow myself at the same time, I sighed and looked to the ground, my tears were flowing down my face and I couldn't talk anymore, I stood up to leave but he stood in my way, he pulled me to his chest and I didn't even flinch, I wasn't gonna break this I'm being selfish, the longer we stay here the harder it is, I was drowning into thoughts when he brought me back to reality...

Karma's POV:
Listen to me nagisa, we were meant to meet and fall in love, I was made to fix your broken pieces, you won't break me not now not ever, I'll be with you forever if you want me to, and in your worst moments I'll be the person to bring you back from those dark places, you're more than welcome to be a burden on me if that's what you think you are, please don't say you're lonely or useless, whatever happens to us I'm always gonna be here for you, I sighed still holding him, I felt his arms rise from his sides and tightly grip on my back, he was pinching my shirt hard and crying into my shoulder, all I could here was a muffled thank you from him, after a few minutes he pulled away his head with his arms still around me, he looked up at me and I said: now come on, I don't like to see you crying, show me that cute smile of yours, he rolled his eyes at me then smiled lightly as he slammed his head against me chest again, I said: I love you blueberry, he said: I love you too dumb head, we giggled a bit, then sat down on the couch cuddling (a/n my babies are so cute), we both fell asleep there on the couch nott thinking about anything...

Nagisa's POV:
I woke up it was 12 at night, I remembered Asano he must be worried I should go home, I poked karma so he can sleep in his bed, he opened his eyes, I told him: sorry strawberry I need to go, Asano must be worried, I'll text you tomorrow, just go sleep in your room, I love you karma, he rolled his eyes then stood up he hugged me and said: I know that and it's the only reason I'm letting you go back to his house, I gave him a peck on his lips, then walked away he giggled a bit, then said goodbye, I walked home feeling happier than ever.

Time skip to 10 minutes later:
Asano's POV:
I had too much to drink, and I was sitting here in the bar making out with a stranger, all I thought about was the fact that he looked like Nagisa, I pretended to go to the bathroom and left the bar, I barely could manage to walk, but I kept trying till I got home, I was at the interance but so was he, he stood there looking at me with a what have you done look, I walked to him and fell to his shoulder, he helped me go inside then took me to my room, he changed my clothes and put me to bed without saying a single word, I spoke up as he was just about to leave: are you that blind nagi-sa? I obviously couldn't speak properly, but I was using drunk me to say what sober me could never say to his face, he asked: what are you talking about Asano?, I said: don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about, everyone knows even your little "boyfriend" Knows, he said: know about what? I sighed and then said: that I love you for heaven's sake, I couldn't hold back anymore and I broke into tears, he calmly walked to me, kissed my forehead and said: I do know, but I don't want to discuss this while you're in this case, so sleep tight and we'll talk about everything tommorow, all I could do is nod like a little kid under a spell, he gave me a smile the turned off the lights and lied in bed to sleep himself, god dammit why do I love you so much? Is all I could think of while I slowly fell asleep...

(A/N time heya guys it's this lazy author that hasn't updated in a few years now, okay jk but I'm seriously sorry that I'm not updating everyday, I was just a bit tired, I'll try to update every day or in two days maximum, I hope you enjoyed this chapter, express your opinions in the comments about everything that happened in this chapter *wink* as always ily all remember to stay beautiful 💞😊💕).