it breaks my heart (karmagisa) || Complete

a new life

Nagisa's POV:

I sat on a chair in the kitchen and the muffled sound of Karma ranting was apparent, I stared at my fingers which were tapping on the counter almost as if they were moving on their own, I was brought back by Karma's hand on my shoulder, he said his voice soft: are you feeling alright?, I gave a slight nod.

even though I wasn't quite sure if I was alright, one month of complete silence could do that to a person, my thoughts seemed to be louder than anything spoken around me, thoughts about everything I went through.

the fact that I still cared about a person that made my life a living hell haunted me, she was getting ten years in jail for child abuse, I doubt she'll survive one, I also doubted ever visiting her, maybe I should start listening to what everyone is saying and that I should just forget she was ever my mother.

maybe days will start passing normally, and maybe I'll feel alive again, maybe my nightmares will stop owning me, and maybe just maybe I'll let myself be happy.

Karma's arm wrapped around my shoulders from the back and my body relaxed at his touch, he said: I love you, you know that right?, I smiled then said: I love you too, he turned me around with a shocked expression on his face but that soon turned into a huge grin.

he let out a sigh then said: you can not imagine how much I've missed hearing your voice, he squeezed me into a tight hug, I laughed then said: I'm sorta losing air here, he loosened his grip then gave an apologetic smile, I said: it's about time I start living my own life, not the life my mother wanted for me, and for now my life consists of going back to school, to stop overthinking everything, and to take care of us.

he had an unusual expression on his face, one I didn't get to see a lot, he was smiling, but it wasn't a cocky smirk, or anything like that, it was a warm and genuine smile, and his eyes were softer, embracing the rest of his face.

I chuckled then asked: what is it?, he shook his head then said: I'm just, he stopped for a while then continued: I'm really happy, me too, me too Karma.

my life wasn't going to be easy, healing wasn't going to be easy, but I had all I needed with me, a loving partner, amazing friends, and a will to get better, a will to make something great out of my life, to live in the moment without getting scared for my future, to be free.

Asano's POV:

I was laying on the couch at home when my phone rang, it was Nagisa's number, I answered assuming it was Karma, but was greeted by a familiar voice, my body jolted up and I stuttered trying to form words, I said: holy shit, it is you, when did this happen?, he chuckled then said: yesterday, I sighed then said: remind to murder that asshole for not telling me, he said: I made him promise not to say anything, so I can surprise you, I honestly wanted to do it face to face but I've been so busy with catching up with everything.

I sighed heavily then said: it doesn't matter I'm just so happy to hear you talk again, he said: first of all I called to thank you for everything, everything, I questioned, he continued: being the most amazing friend on this planet, taking me and my bullshit in when no one else would, loving and accepting me with all my fuck ups.

I said: why does this sound like you're leaving?, he chuckled then said: don't worry I'm not going anywhere, I just realized I never said thank you to you and I never let you know how important you are to me, I let out a huge sigh then said: thank god, and about the thank you thing, you really don't have to whatever I did to help you, you have returned fully by helping me be a better person, and by being my friend, my best friend.

so that phone call went on for a long time, we talked about everything, I even brought in the subject of dating, and Haru, and surprisingly it wasn't awkward at all, I guess the comfortableness of our friendship is still there after all, he was super excited, and kind of scary, he went on and on about he would not hesitate to hurt him if he does anything to hurt me, I took it as Nagisa being Nagisa, and shrugged it off, he swore that if I didn't introduce them in the span of this week that he would get super mad at me, and you do not want to see an angry Nagisa.

Haru was later informed of this, he was also weirdly excited about it, he's always excited about getting to know me, it's really cute, life is really loving me lately, I don't deserve it but here's a thank you anyways, I'm slowly falling in love, I'm rebuilding a beautiful friendship, and I'm exploring new sides of everything, I think it's safe to say that I am finally happy, we all are.

(so here you go, the last chapter, and yes if you are wondering I currently am crying while writing this, I can not explain how happy and sad I am this is ending, this is my first story on wattpad, and the one I've worked the most on, I hope people continue to enjoy it even though it is now officially complete, and I hope that the ending was satisfying enough for all of you lovely readers, happy endings are not usually a theme of mine but I am glad this story ended this way, and for the very last time on here, remember to stay beautiful my friends, love you loads).