it breaks my heart (karmagisa) || Complete

talk to me...

Asano's POV:
I walked in in the room and he was lying there, he just kept staring at me silently, I felt ashamed, I couldn't look directly into his beautiful blue eyes knowing that he's in this situation because of me, I could've woken up, I could've stopped him, I could've noticed he was broken, but I didn't and now guilt was taking me, I sat next to his bed, I finally looked up to him and to my surprise, he was smiling, it was a broken sad smile, he knew I'll understand what he's trying to say, I said calmly: listen nagisa, I don't know how to explain to you how sorry I am for not seeing that you needed me and that I wasn't able to help you, after seeing you like that my heart shattered, I felt the regret devouring me from the inside, I truly hope someday you can forgive me nagisa, I'm so sorry, my last sentence came out stuttered as I broke into endless tears, the fear of loosing him forever was stuck in my mind dragging me deeper and deeper into my dark thoughts...

Nagisa's POV:
When Asano first walked in I was ashamed to talk to him after what I put him through, but when he finished talking, I was paralyzed, he felt guilty? Why the hell is he blaming himself? I couldn't get any words out, tears unconsciously started rolling down my cheeks, I don't deserve him, I don't deserve anybody, I only break the people around me, I shouldn't be selfish, they deserve to be happy, I need to say it, I sighed deeply then said: I'm the one that should be sorry Asano, you don't deserve any of this, please go, my tears were flowing making my vision blurry, he gave me an understanding look, it's like he knew exactly what was going in my mind, he kissed my forehead and walked out of the room...

Karma's POV:
After what seemed like forever, Asano walked out of the room, his calmness scared me, he leaned against the wall and crossed his arms, he motioned his head for me to go in and I did, when I opened the door nagisa was crying, I instantly ran to his bed and tried to hug him, he didn't let me, he just continued sobbing, after a while he lifted his head up and looked into my eyes, his face was red and dried tears were visible on it, he said stuttering: karma, can I be alone please?, I understood his needs but he shouldn't be left with himself right now, I said: you really shouldn't be alone right now, he sighed and said: please just go karma, his tone broke my heart, I couldn't meet his gaze, I ran out of the room, I stood against the wall next to Asano and we both knew, we messed up, we shouldn't have left him alone with his thoughts, he took the blame when we should have, we stood in silence because we had nothing to say to each other...

Time skip 2 days later:
Nagisa's POV:
It's been 3 days since I've been in the hospital, they're still refusing to release me, I haven't seen them since I last talked to them, are they mad at me? I guess it's better if they're mad at me, it'll be easier for them to forget about me, I don't deserve Their love, I only bring trouble wherever I go, I got pulled into my thoughts, but soon I was brought back, a knock on the door was my savior, I said: come in, my voice was raspy and I couldn't speak properly, but the person apparently heard me and they walked in, I was in shock I didn't understand why they were here, the only two people I wanted to see were standing in front of me, I stared at them for a while then asked: guys what are you doing here? Karma responded sarcastically: we're here to visit a friend of course, I rolled my eyes at him, and they both sat next to me, each on every side, we were sitting there without a sound, I coughed, meaning get into it, Asano cleared his throat then said: listen, me and karma talked yesterday, I looked at them in shock, weird nobody ended up in the hospital, Asano continued: we decided that we are not gonna listen to you, so you can push us away all you want, we're not going, when they release you, you'll stay with each of us for a week, and we'll keep switching like that, so we can both get time with you, I was looking at both of them with an are you kidding me look, I wanted to reject them right away but karma shut me off saying: and there's no point of trying to say no to this blueberry, we're not gonna leave you alone until you agree, I obviously didn't have a choice but I still wanted to try and get out of it, I said annoyed: fine, I'll think about it, they both grinned widley, and I rolled my eyes at them, Asano said: see its not that hard to say yes Smurf, I shot him a deadly look and he laughed, him and karma continued to chat, and I sat there listening, I decided to ask what's the sudden niceness?, I said in a sarcastic tone: seems like you don't need me anymore, but I do kind of appreciate that you're in the same room and the cops aren't here, they both glared at me, and I couldn't hold back anymore I broke out laughing, they both smiled at me, and I smiled back, the doctor walked in all of a sudden, he greeted everyone and said: looks like we can release you tomorrow, but that doesn't mean that you don't need rest for at least two days, I sighed and said: okay, I'll rest, karma said: we'll come to pick him up tomorrow, Asano will handle the papers, I can't deal with that stuff, Asano nodded in assurance to the doctor and he left the room, Asano said: first week is with me since most of your stuff is at my house already, I nodded and sat there thinking, this weekly thing is gonna be interesting...

(A/N hey dear readers, this is literally the worst chapter ever, I'm having a huge writers block sorry, I'll try to make the next one actually good, and they'll talk about nagisa's problems I won't leave it that way, some action will happen too *wink* but you'll have to wait for the next chapter cause I'm evil, byeee ily all and remember to stay beautiful as always 💞💕).