Yours Truly, Me.

Broken

You might not ever read this, just know I'm talking to you,

When you left you left me stunned, still don't know what to do,

Keep asking your friends, but they're not telling the truth,

I've been keeping quiet but it's like I'm Abe in the booth.

Honestly I'm hurting, there's a hole in my heart,

Groceries labeled pain, you know I'm filling the cart,

I'm the bullseye on the wall, you're an accurate dart,

Try to tell you how it feels but hell, I can't even start.

Try to text you weekly, iMessages going green,

Tell you that I need you, my messages ain't getting seen,

Always said you were a servant, but now you're acting like a queen,

Just want to get to get in touch, my tears are falling on the screen,

Couldn't say it to my face, and so you left quietly,

It's like the perfect picture of the problem with society,

Try to stay complacent, but now it's really trying me,

Told me that you loved me, so what prompted you to lie to me?

Honestly, I'm sick of always writing poetic,

Wanna go on a tangent, but that's not my aesthetic,

Wishing I could find a way to keep it copacetic,

Shit still hurts me daily, stuck wishing you hadn't said it.

Why do people think that hurting others is okay?

We listen to other people, but never to what we say,

We do whatever's easiest, never find another way,

At this point our hearts are prolly sick of being prey,

Because honestly, the senselessness is insane,

Wish I could take a bullet, send it straight through my brain,

Look around and see relationships I don't want to gain,

What's the problem with us? We just love causing pain.

It's like my love is slowly dying, and it's getting worse,

Can't convey my feelings just by writing a single  verse,

It's like this is my funeral and I'm riding the hearse,

Last week I was fine but now just living, it hurts,

Between death and finding happiness, who knows what comes first?

Can't seem to find my footing, always feels like I'm cursed,

Got these feelings filling me, and I'm 'bout to burst,

Feels like the world is laughing, not done doing its worst.