The Truth.

June 8,2014.

I'm so worthless! No one can ever care about me.. Damnit. I'm nothing but a nuisance to everyone around me.. I thought I could help people, but I only hurt them! I want this to end.. Now. I know I'll never get the guts to do it.. I'm too scared. But I'm also too scarred.. Why can't there just be a happy button..? A button that makes you view things differently, in a positive way.. I just want to be happy! Maybe it's my fault that I'm not happy.. Maybe it's my fault I'm broken? I may have went through mediocre problems growing up, and still go through a few, and gained a few. I probably blow it out of proportion. Or I keep poking at it and probing it until it becomes an enormous mess.. I think I need to go away for a while.. It's best for everyone, maybe I need to go back in the hospital for I dunno.. Forever..? I think that could work out nicely. I feel so selfish though.. So many people care.. But one moment can't make it all go away . one moment they love me. But as soon as it starts.. They can't handle it. "I want to be here for you" An hour later I have a panic attack.. "What the fucks her problem!? She's fuckin' psycho." Yup.. Good job being there for me..

Sincerely,

Me..

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