I went to the dog park with Esther today and watched her make friends. She spent at least 10 minutes chasing her tail. And you laughed. I laughed. For the first time in forever I smiled and it wasn't because of you. For the first time in forever I had some hope. After an hour of being at the dog park I got in my car and listened to music that wouldn't make me sad. I watched Esther climb between the front seat and the back seat. She loves being in the car.
You know that.
When I got home I made myself a smoothie and actually drank the whole thing. I was hungry. Hungry enough to finish something. I hadn't been hungry in weeks. I started reading a book. It was a book you suggested I read. It was a self help book. Who would've thought you would be the one to help me through this break up.
The book is boring. Each page is hard to finish but it reminds me of you. Your little sticky notes filled each page with more information than the eye could read. Your understanding of what the author meant in her very confusing words helped me understand. You helped me today. You helped me read this book that was going to help me get over you. Thank you for that.
I watched a vine thread on twitter today. I laughed at the vines. I might have had tears almost come out of my eyes but the important thing is they didn't. I laughed without you today. I made my own happiness.
Thank you for writing those little notes. You're helping me. Thank you. You've made me love you again.
-they say it takes 21 days to break a habit
