I couldn't sleep last night. You ran through my head so much I couldn't even close my eyes. It made me sick. I slept next to the toilet. I threw up all the pizza I ate.
I woke up in my bathroom with a pounding headache. I took two aspirin and laid in my bed. I couldn't stop crying. I miss you so much. Why did I have to ruin everything. Why did I have to break up with you? I love you. I'm still in love with you.
I ran to the bathroom and threw up the pills I had just taken. My chest hurt, I was hyperventilating from crying to hard. I was alone and sad and you weren't there to help me deal with this.
Today I did nothing but lay in bed and stare at the sky. I watched the sunset and the stars come out to shine.
You texted me and told me you got your shoes. Your thanked me. And you adding a laughing emoji. I couldn't bring myself to reply. You called me and this time it was me letting you go to voicemail. Not because I didn't want to hear your voice. I love your voice, but I couldn't talk to you. I couldn't talk to anymore for that matter. Tell them you lost your voice. I lost my voice from throwing up so much.
I drank a bottle of water and wasn't able to keep it down. The thought of your actually makes me sick. I'm sick of thinking about you. I'm sick of you being my every thought. I am sick of caring about you.
I'm sorry I hurt you.
-they say it takes 21 days to break a habit
