Winter Snow

January 1st.

January 1st. 

Love, i guess you could say i just woke up. I didnt really sleep though i was mainly downstairs though. I forgot to take my sleeping pills last night. Well more like i choose not to. Why? I dont know. 

This probably sounds really odd but i visited you last night. I dont know why that would sound odd. Normally in the movies when you hear of someone visiting someone that late at night something bad normally happens. I dont know. 

It was pretty cold though, i kinda just sat there and sang to you. Niall was out so he wasnt aware i left untill he passed by and saw me. I think i scared him because when he came to get me he creeped up slowly. To be honest he scared me too. 

He found out then i didnt take my pills. He tried to take me home but i kind of rejected it. He refused to leave though without me. We were there untill maybe 2ish in the morning. He wasnt mad, just worried i think. And of course upset. 

We came home and he told me to take my pills. I told him i was tired and that i was going to take them in the morning. Now that its morning i dont really want to. I might have wished i couldve later when im at the hospital with all the kids. 

Its not at the same hospital you died in. Its in the one Niall took me to like a week ago. I dont know, i guess i should get dressed and ready huh? Okay. Well i love you so much and i miss you a lot. 

~Harry Tomlinson