*Justin, Jason, or one in the same?

*seven

I can love you like that by John Michael Montgomery
Justin's p.o.v

Lisa pulled me out of the warehouse to someplace i couldn't see. the sun had set and she was very upset. i would catch a glimpse of something ever now and then when she finally stopped and i realized where we were. a cemetery. the cemetery we buried alex in at that. we were also standing next to alex's grave in front of another head stone.

"This. this is what nick wasn't aloud to tell you." she answered pulling out a flash light and pointing it a the stone.

Jason Alexander McCann

7-30-2011

On angels wings he flies

"what is that?" i choked. "that's my son. to be more acurrate, that's our son." she said kneeling and touching the stone. "what do you mean that's our son?" i started tearing up. "i mean i got pregnant the night we had sex a nick's house and i lost him at five months. billy was beating me the night he got arrested. he beat me so bad i didn't think i would make it. my major concern was my boy. by the time nick got me to the hospital i'd lost alot of blood. the doctor said me and baby would be fine but there was a problem with the baby.

he said he wasn't growing in the right spot and it could possibly kill us both. two weeks later i woke up at 2:30 in a god awful pain. i called nick and he took me to the hospital. three hours after the doctor saw me and started running test he told me that the baby was gone. he said they would have put me into premature labor or do a c-section to get the baby out. i was in labor for ten hours before i got to see my son.

it broke me more than billy and keith could do together." she sobbed and i pulled her close. i realized that i still loved her. she was still my lisa. my weakness and strength. always concealed yet totally vunerable. through all this she was still the same. i loved her more than anything in the world.

"li i would have been here in a heartbeat the day this happened if i would have known. i would have taken every hit for you to protect you and my child if i could've. why didn't you call me when you found out?" i was heart broken.

"I didn't want to believe any of it. I was with Keith when I found out. I was dating keith and pregnant with your child. the day he was born I was helpless. I was practically slapped in the face with the realization that our son died inside of me while a doctor was running test. keith was there when i had him. he started beating me when i got out of the hospital." she sobbed into my chest.

"what kind of sick bastard beat a woman after she lost a kid? what kind of sick bastard beat a woman at all?" i clenched my jaw. "when the doctor asked if keith was the father i told him no and when he asked if i wanted the baby to carry keith's last name i said no, he needed to carry his real fathers last name. i had planned on calling you a few weeks before he was born. i didn't want to worry you about billy." she said taking a breath. "I've been gone for three years and i was slowly going insane. i left behind the girl i loved for three years and i figured you had moved on and found someone else. that you were engaged and happy. i dated others thinking i would stop worrying about you. i have an idea." i admitted.

"that's never good. what is it jasey?" she asked looking up at me. "come to california with me. just for a little if you like it you can stay longer." i said touching her damp face. "justin i don't know. i mean you have work and you're going on tour soon..... are you sure?" she was suprised. "yes, i wouldn't worry so much and you'd be away from keith-" "keith. that's an issue."

"one you can deal with tomorrow. come on lets get you to bed." i grabbed her hand and we went to the warehouse. once we got there i stopped in the front room and she looked at me. "what's wrong justin?" she asked. "i figured i would sleep on the couch."i said. "are you kidding me? this is still your home too justin." she said grabbing my hand and pulling me to the room. "i still love you justin. i never stopped." she admitted. "i know and i love you too. now sleep." i said laying next to her and pulling her into me. god how i missed laying next to her.