Save each other

Finally someone to talk to

-Sure. Now please go on.- rose shook her hand in ademand of her to start.
-they started the night we got away from the First Order.- she looked to the ceiling-
They all happen in Ahch-To. Last night i was in the hut, soaking wet, after being called by a weird place. I havent told anyone about this, but the forest on starkiller base wasnt my last encounter with- she had to swallow so tears didnt fell down her eyes-...Ben. you know him as Kylo Ren.
-what?! Are you telling me that everynight he comes to your dreams and that when you were away you talked to him? Also why Ben? - rose said standing up. Then she saw the sorrow in rey's eyes so she sat down and placed a hand on her shoulder - sorry, go on.
-the force made us connect in a way i still dont understand. He couldnt use the force on me and i couldnt either. I was angry at first, but then i found out about Luke.
-what happened to him.
-he's the reason Ben turn to the dark. Snoke has haunted him since he was born, so luke senced that and tried to kill him in his sleep. I understood then that him and i were the same. In a moment of vulnerability -rey couldnt keep a tear inside of her eyes- he told me i was not alone and i said he wasnt either and we touched hands. Suddenly he was in the hut with me and we had a vision. I saw him turning so i went to him.
-you went to the supremacy? Just because you had a vision?
-he turned into my only hope. I knew that if i went to him he would turn and we would have won. And it happened, for a moment.
-what happened?
-he killed Snoke.
-What!? Snoke is dead!
-i know, i was confused too. I guess they didnt spread the news because they wanted us to think they still had a big, strong force user by their side, or maybe.... Kylo wanted it to keep it a secret. He might have blamed me.- Rey said sighning.
- you're telling me that he killed Snoke for you. A sith lord killed his master because of a Jedi?- rose said placing both of her hands on her lap.
-kind of. I was right, he had turned, but just for the fight.
-oh.- Rose said looking at the floor wandering why then, Kylo wasnt there now.
-well, after that we fought against the guards. It felt like a dance, every move was syncronyced. We defeated them. I thought he wanted to come back but then he was Kylo again, not the Ben Solo I - Rey couldnt end the sentence. It was to embarrasing for her to admit it.-... well he then asked me to join him. He said we could bring a new order to the galaxy, together. His eyes were almost in tears, wanting so bad for me to with him. And i almost did but i resisted and tried to take the lightsaber. I never told you how it broke, but it did in that moment. He tried to take it too, we fought for it until it finally snapped in two leaving us unconscious on the floor. I woke up first, took the lightsaber and ran away. I felt so bad leaving him there, but i needed to go and help you guys.
-im sorry, rey. It should've been hard.- rose said trying to give a little small to rey.- did you saw him again?
-just once. When we were boarding the falcon. He was in the floor but looked up inmedietly  the bond started. I didnt say anything, i just closed the door and never saw him again.
-how?
- i closed myself from the force so it wouldnt connect us again.
- the nightmares, tell me about them.
-im in the hut, as i told you before, the bond starts and he's there again just as he looked that night. I snapped and told him he lied, he leaved me alone after what he promised. Instead of being the same man he was that night, he started to look the same way after the fight against the guards. He told me i was the one who lied, i was the one who left him there. And he's right.- saying those words was as hard as having to stab yourself and then try to survive.
- rey, i know you might not want to hear this, but you need to open yourself again. You need to heal and the only way is talking to him again, saying those things to his face, not through a dream- rey looked at her like she was crazy-. Just from what you just told me i can guess blindfolded that he's in misery right now. He loves you, Rey! And maybe you loved him too.
- i cant see him again. It would just make everything worse.
-dear, you've been hiding this for six months. At least you can solve things out, then you should decide if you want him again or not.- rose said. She was a good friend to Rey. Always saying the right thing to make her smile or make her feel better.
-thanks, rose.- she said giving her a hug.
-i'll leave you alone if this "bond" thingie works. If you want to talk i'll be in the cafeteria. And remember, love has no sides- she said leaving the room.
Rey knew this day would come, but wanted to push it as far ways as posible. She tried to concentrate in herself, find the balance in her like she did on Ahch-To.
And then it snapped. She felt it again, just as it felt all those days. Awake.
She closed her eyes and then heard it.
Rey.
Just a whisper, but she recognized it inmediatly. She opened her eyes and answered.
Ben.