Amici Per Sempre : Prologo (Currently Editing)

Chapter 4

Lean's POV

It has been days since we ended our celebration, at nandito uli ako ngayon sa Paradiso Dell' Amore.

I don't know why I decided to go here instead of going outside the country. Maybe because of the serene feeling that this place gives? Whatever the reason, I like it here.

A day after the end of our celebration, I just found myself going here again. And its been five days since that day.

So far I just stayed inside my cabin all day long. Minsan lumalabas rin ako sa cabin at naglalakad lakad sa dalampasigan, lalo na pag sunrise o kaya ay sunset.

This is what I actually needed. Alone time. To think about everything happening around me.

Siguro naman sapat na yung dalawang buwan na nagmukmok at umiyak ako dahil sa kanya.

I won't say that I'm fully healed, because I'm not. How can I heal this fast if my 6 year relationship ended just like that? But I can say that I feel better now, and that is because I already accepted the thought that we're not together anymore and kahit anong gawin ko hindi na maibabalik ang kung anong meron kami.

As I look at the sun setting, I can't help but reminisce the past 6 years.

We were friends before we became lovers. Nagkakilala kami noong high school dahil kasama siya sa band na Blue Hyacinth,  ang banda kung saan kasama ang kapatid ko na si Kuya Caleb, ang pinsan ni Nadine na si Zyro, at ang boyfriend noon ni Nadine na si James.

Lagi kaming nanonood ng mga practice nila at mga gig nila dahil todo support si Nadine sa boyfriends niya pati na rin si Drae sa bestfriend niya na si Zyro.

Noong una hindi naman talaga kami close, ni hindi nga kami nag uusap eh. Kaso naging magkapartner kami sa research paper namin noong 4th year high school kami.

Dahil isang buong taon yung research subject namin that time, eventually naging close kami. Nakilala namin ang isa't isa. He's not that bad naman pala. I've always saw him as mayabang and babaero. But in that one year together as partners  I saw him in a different light. He was sweet and caring. He also makes me feel better when I feel down dahil sa hindi ko maayos na nagagawa ang part ko sa research namin. He cheers me up and tells me that I can do it.

At that time, I started to like him. I kept my feelings to myself, kasi alam ko naman na hanggang friend lang ang tingin niya sa akin eh. And I did the right thing kasi nagka girlfriend siya noong 1st year college kami. Tinulungan ko pa nga siya manligaw doon sa girl eh.

But their relationship didn't last long. I don't know why they broke up, but I know na nasaktan siya ng hiwalayan nila. I was there beside him. I was there to comfort him.

Until one day noong 2nd year college kami he told me that he will start courting me and that he likes me. Syempre hindi na ako nagpabebe dahil gusto ko rin naman siya kaya 2 months pa lang simula ng manligaw siya ay sinagot ko na siya.

The six years that we were together were the happiest in my life. Kahit nagkakaroon kami ng fights and problems, at the end of the day naaayos naman namin. I thought everything was perfect, pero sa isip ko lang pala perfect.

I can vividly remember the scene that broke my heart. It was a month after our 6th anniversary. Ang last na kita namin ay noong anniversary pa namin. Kasi naging busy ako sa pag aayos ng new collection na ilalabas sa Fashion Leaner, ang clothing line ko. Tapos siya naman ay naging busy sa band nila dahil maglalabas sila ng new album. Sanay naman na kami na may mga panahon talaga na medyo matagal kami hindi nagkikita lalo na pag busy kami kaya hindi na bago ito sa amin.

Ang nakakapanibago ay ang hindi niya pagrereply sa messages ko, dati kasi ay kahit na busy kami hindi naman kami nawawalan ng communication sa isa't isa. Pero naisip ko lang baka nga sobrang busy niya dahil sa banda at sa trabaho niya sa company nila.