It All Started With A Cappuccino

Part 40

Mia's POV

I sat alone in Joe's room, him and Byron had offered to stay with me but I had told them I was ok and just needed to be alone.

Joe had lent me his laptop and I was mindlessly watching videos on youtube trying to distract myself when something caught my eye. A video uploaded a few minutes ago by non other than Daniel Howell.

Before I could stop myself I had clicked on the video and his face appeared on the screen.

"Hello internet" His voice seemed to waver as he spoke, continuing with the video as he spoke about losing Phil, how it had affected him, changed him, how it made him scared of losing other people.

Throughout the whole video he barely looked into the camera and instead stared off into the distance, occasionally pausing to compose himself. My heart broke for him as I listened to him and couldn't help but think that this video was for me. That this was his way of explaining and apologising. He didn't mean to act the way he had, he was just scared of losing me like he had Phil.

I closed the lid of Joe's laptop unable to see his guilty looking face and got up walking to the phone.

I scrolled through the contacts until I came across Dan's number, my finger hovered over the call button for a few seconds before I clicked it and shakily bought the phone to my ear. Each ring became more agonising until he answered.

"Hello?"

"Dan?" I whispered.

"Mia? Mia is that you?" He asked speedily.

"Yeah it's me, listen I um just watched your new video and I understand why you acted like you did. You were scared that you would lose me"

A silence hung on the other end of the phone until a shaky breath was just audible.

"I was terrified Mia, losing you is the one thing that I won't let happen and I think I got so caught up that I didn't realise that I was losing you" He replied barely above a whisper.

My heart wrenched as he said those words and now it was my turn to let out a shaky breath.

"Dan you haven't lost me, I just need time to think things through and so do you. You need to learn to control your anger, maybe see someone and talk to them about Phil, about everything, because I don't think I can come back until you're temper is under control"

I had to stand my ground, I felt sorry for him but when Dan was like that it terrifies me and I don't want to think how our baby would feel.

"I promise Mia, I'll see someone. Then you'll come home?" He asked, hope lacing his voice.

"I promise"

"Ok I love you Mia so much" he said with a shaky breath.

"I love you too"

I hung up and put the phone down letting out another shaky breath.

"I'm guessing that was Dan?" Joe's voice made me jump a little before I turned to face him.

"Yeah I um I just-" I rambled, trying to find the words to tell Joe what had happened.

"Mia it's fine you don't have to explain yourself " He chuckled, stepping closer to me and embracing me in a friendly hug. "I saw Dan's video and was coming to tell you but I guess you saw it huh?"

"Yeah I did. He's gonna get help, talk to someone about Phil" I explained, sighing sightly at the end, a small flicker of hope burning within me.

"That's good" Byron said as he walked into the room, placing a hand on my shoulder and squeezing it comfortingly.

I nodded in response and played with my fingers awkwardly not knowing what to do.

"Dan's not a bad person Mia, hopefully he'll be able to prove it to you. Now let's go get something to eat" Joe said sincerely before heading into the kitchen, closely followed by Byron.

"Yeah hopefully" I said to myself, allowing myself to smile slightly for what felt like the first time in a long while.

Dan's POV

I put the phone down and breathed a sigh of relief. I hadn't lost her. She still loved me. All I had to do was see someone about Phil and she would come back to me. I grabbed my laptop and began typing away in search of a therapist.

After a couple of hours I had emailed a few and left messages for others, I was determined to make this happen. I wasn't aware of how much I needed to speak to someone about Phil until Mia had mentioned it and now I was going to do it, not only for her but for myself as well. I leaned back in satisfaction as I shut my laptop and headed to the kitchen to make some food.

Once I had eaten dinner and showered I headed to bed feeling so much better than I did the last time I got into this bed alone.

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