Touring, Namjoon X Reader

Run

... 21:09 PM ...

I take a deep inhale of air and open my eyes on the exhale. It's okay, everything will be fine; there's no need to worry it's just a concert. Inhale. Yes, there will be people, a lot of people, there, but they like you. It'll be fine. Exhale. Just, stop worrying. STOP!

RM: "(Nickname), are you okay, hun?"

I look at the large comforting figure protecting my view of the guys. As my eyes meet his, I sense he observes my fear and so I trail my sight to the seat, not blinking once. I run my fingers through my long hair and hold onto it, trying to grip my thoughts. Something doesn't feel right...

Me: "The- it- everything- I can't- what if- how do i- I don't-"

He grips both my hands in one of his and the other cups my face. Worried, he looks into my eyes and tries to calm me down with hushing noises. I'm silenced, but in no way am I calm. My breathing is fast and heavy though my thoughts race in my mind as if lighter than air. They go so fast, so light. Spinning, and twirling, and dancing, and spiraling. Spiraling, I'm spiraling. Oh no, I'm not okay. I look at Namjoon for help, but my nausea causes his face to blur and distort. I grip his arm, relying on other senses. I feel a tug on my body and my head is placed between my legs.

Murmurs fill the car; the others are most definitely looking at me and I feel Anna's hand on me. She Rubs my back and Namjoon speaks to me in his calm, low voice.

Namjoon: "Breath, slowly; I'll guide you"

Namjoon: "In" I inhale, and he hesitates for a few seconds.

Namjoon: "Out" I exhale and wait.

Namjoon: "In" inhale.

Namjoon: "Out" exhale.

Namjoon: "In" I hear sniggering from the back of the car and can immediately pin the laughter to Jimin and J-Hope.

Jungkook: "I don't get it, what's funny?"

I re-analyse the scene that just occurred and catch onto what the others were thinking.

Me: "Pfft- hahha." I lift my head and laugh into Namjoon's chest; embarrassed at their inference of the event. He brings me closer as he chuckles into my hair.

Namjoon: "That's not what I meant, guys."

Jungkook: "What do you mean?"

Jimin: "Sure, sure."

Taehyung bursts out into laughter, I assume he's just caught on. His little cheeks round and his cute smile flashed to the whole car. He giggles to himself again and then whispers to yoongi who is currently trying to hold in his laughter.

Suga: "AH HAH HAHA, Taehyung! You can't say that!"

Taehyung giggles menacingly to himself and Suga chuckles into a sigh at the comment.

Jungkook: "What?"

Jin: "You boys stop being dirty, there's a child in the car."

Jungkook: "I'm not a child!"

Annabelle, who is currently reading a book – I don't know how she does it, I always get car sick – looks up from her page, leans over to Kookie and whispers in his ear. From the pink tinge that his cheeks start to develop, i can only imagine that she's telling him what we were all laughing about. He turns to look at Anna, smirks and kisses her on the lips. Namjoon and I 'awe' simultaneously making us look at each other. He pouts to kiss me but doesn't lean down.