The Babysitter (frerard)

Chapter 24: I Dont Love You

Frank's POV:

I haven't heard from Gerard the rest of the day. I was worried and I truly wanted to call him but he might be busy. Then again, he could be waiting for me to call him since I'm the dominant one in this relationship. Oh fuck, wait that sounded wrong. Shit, maybe I should just wait for him to call me.

I bit my lip, thinking if I should or not call him. I finally decided that I should and grabbed my phone, dialing Gerard's number.

"Hello?" I heard Gerard ask through the line.

Although, his voice doesn't sound as cheery or normal as usual. This time, he sounds hurt or tired.

"Hey, Gee," I smiled, chuckling. "How're you doing?"

"Frank, it's like eleven at night," Gerard pointed out. "Is everything alright?"

You shouldn't be asking me that question, Gerard. His voice is the one that makes him sound lifeless inside, not me. But I know I shouldn't say that, it wasn't appropriate of saying that to anyone who are having some real issues.

"Are you Okay?" I asked with genuine concern. "You don't sound like your usual self. And I'm fine and all, but are you?"

"I'm fine, Frank," Gerard sniffled. "I- I just need to get better sleep."

"Are you... are you crying?" I frowned, sitting up on my bed against my headboard. "Baby, What's up? What's going on? Please, sweetheart, talk to me."

"I- I can't," Gerard whimpered before he bursted into tears. "I don't want to tell you because I don't want to be a burden and I don't want you to worry. I don't want you to think I need attention or anything."

"Gerard, you are not a burden to me at all," I declared. "You make me feel happy and warm inside. And even if you tell me your problems, it doesn't mean that you want attention - it means you need help and there is no problem for asking help. I am here for you and if you need anything, I'll, be right there. Even if you were just hungry for some McDonalds in the middle of the night, I'll bring you McDonalds."

Gerard sniffled, giggling a bit. I smiled at the adorable sound, feeling my heart squish in cuteness. 

"I love you, Frank," Gerard blurted out, making me freeze all of a sudden. "I know we just started dating a couple of days ago but - I can't hold back anymore, you were with Jamia and I didn't want to ruin anything even if she hated me. I don't like being that person who breaks up a couple because they have feeling for that certain person. I wanted you to be happy so I kept these feelings to myself."

"Gerard - I-I Don't know what to say," I stuttered. "I know we've been friends before I started babysitting Mikey but th-this isn't how I feel about you. Look, I'm sorry, I really am, but I just... I just don't love you."

"Oh god, I ruined it, didn't I?" Gerard asked, crying more now. "I'm sorry, it's just - you're really great and I've fallen in love with you before I knew you were with Jamia, and I thought we - us - would turn out to be more than friends."

"We are more than friends!" I said. "We can still be boyfriends because Gee, you make me feel happy inside. I don't want to lose you and I don't want to lose this."

"I'm sorry, Frank, but I don't think I can no longer be with you," Gerard sniffled. "I love you, I really do and I want to be with you but if you don't love me then I guess this wouldn't work out, am I right?"

I sighed because Gerard was right. I've never fallen in love with someone, so why would I think that the first person I'll fall in love with, will be Gee? As much as I hate to say, maybe Gerard and I staying friends will be better even if we started dating days ago.