poisoned

My speech

Me and my dad, walked up to my mother, followed by the guys. I touch her cold hands. I started crying loud now. People were pating my back, telling me that it was going to be okay, telling me to be strong. I then stared screaming "MOM! WAKE UP! DON'T LEAVE ME!" I yelled. My classmates, teacher, family, and friends were there, looking at me screaming, crying. "MOM! PLEASE! WAKE U!"  "WAKE UP!" I was yelling and crying like a loonitic. It was time to close the coffin and take her out. "NO! PLEASE MOM! PLEASE WAKE UP!!" I yelled one more time, and hugged her, before they closed it. The guys had to hold me back. They lifted the coffin up, and took her away... (Time skip) we were at the graveyard. I was watching my mom being buried... there's nothing I can do... and once again, tears filled up my eyes. We were outside for about a half hour. My mother was completely buried. I set the flowers on her grave, then we headed back to the church. We were about to eat, but I wanted to make a speech before we start eating. I got on the stage and took the mic (drop) (sorry, I just had to) I took the mic in my hand. And spoke.."Um.. hello?" I got everyone's attention, then I continued speaking. "Um.. hi. Well, um.. I know you guys are probably wondering what I'm doing up here.. I just wanted to make a speech.... and sing a song." I said. Know everyone was paying attention to me. "Well, before I sing, I want to say a few words. A say a few, but it seems like a lot" I said and smiled, everyone giggled at my sentence. "Well.. so many people are telling me to be strong, that everything is okay, and that I'll see her again.. soon. Well.. it's really hard to be strong.. and I feel like.. everything is not okay... and when will I see her again. Soon? When is soon? Is soon, next week? Next month? Next year? In.. 20 years? When is soon? Watching my mother being buried... was the most hardest thing in my life. And trust me, I went through a lot through my life. But.. I can't be strong. When I heard... the news.. you know how I felt? Some people might think, oh, you must have been hurt! Yes I was hurt, but.. I felt something else... before they told me, when I was at my place, and i didnt know what was going on with my mother.. my heart.. felt soo hurt, and i started crying, but I didn't know why. I asked my self, why am I crying? But after five minutes..." I stopped for awhile, then continued "if I could have one more wish, wish about anything, no matter how impossible it is, I would wish to see my mom one more time before she left. I would hug her so tight, tell her I love her so much. And just hear her voice and laugh one last time.... I'm going to sing a song, called dancing in the sky. I hope you like it" I said and started singing. "Tell me what, does it look like in heaven. Is it peaceful? Is it free~ like they say? Does the sun shines bright~ forever? Have your fears, and your pain gone away?~ cause here on earth, it feels like everything, good is missing, since you left~ and here on earth, everything's different, there's an emptiness, oh oh I, I hope your da~ncing in the sky, and i hope your singing, in the angles choir, and i hope the a~ngles know what they have, Ill bet it's so nice up in heaven since you arrived so tell me what, do you do up in heaven? Are your days, filled with love, and light? Is there music? Is there art, and invention? Tell me are you happy? Are you more alive?~ cause here on earth,it  feels like everything, good is missing, since you left, and here on earth, everything's different, there's an emptiness, oh oh I, I hope your da~ncing in the sky, and i hope your singing, in the angles choir, and i hope the a~ngles know what they have, Ill bet its so nice, up in heaven since you arrived, I hope your da~ncing in the sky, and i hope your singing, in the angles choir, and i hope the a~ngles know what they have, and I'll bet it's so nice up in heaven since you arrived, since you arrived." People were clapping, then I spoke again "Thank you for coming, me and my father appreciate it, Thank you♡"
(To be continued)

https://youtu.be/3ScUqo9KIfw
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A/N: the vidoe link, is the reason why these episodes are like this. Because I lost my cousin, on February. And it still hurts to this day. This is kind of similar to me. I was screaming, telling him to wake up, and yelling his name, hugging him. We sang the song "dancing in the sky" we played this vidoe of him, there was speeches. We had dinner. And I really need a little more time, that's why I'm uploading less. But I'll continue to upload daily. But for know, I need time. Because I still think I'm in a nightmare. At times I finally realize that it's reality and not a dream. But then five minutes later, I think I'm in a nightmare again. And what I love to do at night, is looking for the biggest star and imagine, that it's my cousin (Judas, that's his name) and at the end I always say "Judas George Mark Shecapio Blacksmith, if you heard what I was saying, and you were listing, please send a shooting star" and they always pass by after 2 seconds I say that♡ ok I'll stop yammering know. But please, can you take a look at the vidoe. Thanks. Bye♡~