My Brothers Best Friend (Kade Speiser)

Chris

Elizabeth's POV

I woke up from my slumber and just laid there staring up at the ceiling in pitch darkness. A million things ran through my head and I just wanted them to stop. I've gotta get over it or I'll never be better I thought to myself as I slowly lost total control of my brain. I just need time to reflect and heal from my problems I've done it before several times some easier than others this is just another hill in order to get off of it I've gotta go up it no matter how much I may not want to. Starting with the trial I'll be going to in awhile to get that man the help he needs.

I just needed to do something but alone so I grabbed my many pillows and plopped them on the ground and taped a few sheets up creating a fort for myself once I became satisfied I grabbed my laptop and laid on my stomach. I clicked on the video I just made and looked at the comments I know I shouldn't do it but I was compelled to.

You deserve it #fuckteam10

Wow so they're so desperate they have to make this shit up can't wait for keemstar to see this

We'll help you through this

We support you

Just so many things negative and positive obviously the negative ones made me shut my laptop and mope.
I once again was staring at the ceiling and got lost in my thoughts before my door opened
"Hey I bought you a smoothie and a bagel I figured you didn't eat yet" I heard Kade say he walked around and saw my fort before handing me the food. He half smiled and took my hand
" Why Are you even here? I mean I have so many problems that you always have to deal with and I'm sure deep down you hate it you hate me." I whined
"I could never hate you and you know it" he smiled at me at this point I just took him all in his smooth deep voice and beautiful eyes I didn't want to look away I was so caught up in the moment I forgot about everything.
" Kade I just I'm i mean I don't know" I took a deep breath
" Kade I think I need time alone just so I can think and I don't know just not have my weight put on to you I think that's what's best for right now I'm not saying we should break up but I think I should take some time for myself to feel better do you understand?" I asked at my sudden burst
" Yeah I do I get it but if you wanna do that I get to do this one last time" he said and kissed me gently on the lips I wanted more of him but I already made up my mind I really do need time to heal it's best for all of us. I watched as he left my room as much as I wanted to cry I couldn't I think in the back of my head I knew I was right and that was blocking my tears.

I stood up after gathering myself and smiled I actually smiled I know crazy right but I did. I need to find myself in this desperate time no matter the sacrifice.

2 months later

I still haven't gotten back with Kade but I'm doing really good through extensive therapy I feel normal again I can breathe and go out without flinching at every person who looks at me. If I'm being honest Kade hasn't talked to me in awhile It hurts and I still have crazy feelings for him but I don't think I'm ready plus maybe he's moved on already. I walked downstairs and went to the kitchen Jake was pouring himself a glass of milk and Kade was working at his desk I made eye contact and smiled he looked away and started to work again I sighed and jake turned to face me.
" You are ridiculous" he whispered to me
"Anyways Liz a fan gave me tickets to a glow bowling thing tonight I only have one and I can't go so If you'd like to you can go and if you want someone to go with you I'll pay for another ticket" Jake told me
"Oh I'm totally going and I'm fine being alone I'm sure I'll meet some people" I smiled at him and he handed me the ticket from his wallet I silently cheered as I walked away I loved bowling it was just fun to me. I ran upstairs since this whole thing started at 9 and it was already 8 and started to get ready I put on my clothes that were very showy and threw on a red lip.