*Your POV*
Mother wakes me up so I can get ready. It's really early. She knows I always need some time to get ready in the mornings. If I go out or if it's something special then I just need some time.
If I do something then I'll do it right. I want to look good. Actually I don't want to go. I don't want to leave home -although I can't all this new place already home- but I have to, since they are forcing me.
So I put something 'fancy' on. Not too fancy since I don't want to be overdressed but good enough for the people here and for me.
I mean I just have to look good no matter where I go and I have to do it right no matter what I do.. although I don't really feel good. I put makeup on and look at myself in the mirror.. I think I look okay.. I'm really nervous..
I try to not waste too much time because I want this all to go as fast as possible.. I pray so bad that we won't find a school or that Ethan and mother will give up. Mother would kill me if she would know I waste my prayers for something like this. She would call it a sin.
I walk down the stairs very moody and see them both already waiting for me. Ethan licks his lips and smirks as he looks down at me. Then he bites his lower lip and I get goosebumps.. I try to warn him with my eyes because we're not alone.
I see that mother isn't ready. She didn't change her clothes. She's in her normal house clothes and I have to admit that she's dressing really fancy as well when we go out so I can recognize it when and when not but obviously today she won't leave the house...
»Aren't you coming?« I Ask her confused because she must know that I really need her.. »No darling.. Ethan will go with you..« she says smiling that guilty smile again. I try to not sigh. »There is a lot that still needs to get done here..« as she says that, I around.
Is she really going to stay because she still needs to unpack stuff and settle in? If yes then I won't forgive her that. She pressures her lips. »Honey I still need to sign a lot and the people form the-..« my jaw drops and I cut her off.
»Mother can't that wait? I need you..« I say like a little kid. I'm heartbroken and disappointed. She puts her hand on my cheek and says »I'm sorry darling..« I clench my jaw and she feels that. I step away and and leave.
Ethan follows me. I get into the car without saying a word. He does the same and we are silent for a while.. until I break the silence.. talking to him feels good.
»For the first time.. I go to school.. and she's leaving me alone..« I look at my nails that I painted in a very nice color. I like shiny things.. »I'm here.. she's not leaving you alone..« he says with a soft voice, trying to comfort me.. I sigh.
»But you're not a mom.« he looks serious but understanding at the same time.. so mature, I love that. »Y/N she's trusting you. She knows you can do it on your own and she believes in you.« he says still looking at the road.
One point goes to him. He really knows how to comfort me but I still ask myself if he's right.. does she really trust me and believe in me? Does she really think I can do it on my own?
I hope not.. because I don't want to let her down. That's the thing I'm afraid of.. of disappointing her. I run my hands through my hair and sigh again.
»I did you a favor and picked some private schools.« he says and I look at him. »One Of them is really near to my school.« I totally forgot that he wants to be a doctor.. he got a scholarship.
I'm really proud of him and I can't wait to see him as a doctor. I look at the road as well.. Doctor Hannibal Ethan Lecter.. or Professor Doctor Hannibal Ethan Lecter.. sounds amazing in my head. I smile with that thought. His names are amazing.
