*Your POV*
As soon as it gets dark we leave the hotel hand in hand. His grip tight. I can feel his veins. I love how even when I want to let go he keeps holding it. I smile when he opens the door for me.. a seductive smile.. I already said things are going to change.
I don't want to be stupid and innocent anymore. I don't want people to mess with me only because I have a big heart, a happy soul and a positive mind. I won't have any of that anymore.
I mean what was I living for? What was going to happen to me? Mother couldn't protect me forever. I never had any dreams or goals. It's not like I'm going to be 16 forever. I should grow up and face the real world. I should get my shit together. I would never leave the house and do anything. I would never interact with people behind these thick and high walls.
But now I want the total opposite. I want to know everything. I want to know all the dangerous things. Things need to change. Even if I would want to, I couldn't be the same anymore.
We drive down a road to the gas station.
During the ride he tells me everything that happened and everything that he remembers. I can't believe that this happened to him but at least I can understand why he is like this.. why he doesn't have any feelings and why he wants revenge.
If I would be him I don't think that I could be so strong. He may be crazy but I still love him. I love him for everything that he is. For all his craziness. What happened made him to what he is today. I run my hand through his fluffy hair while he's still driving and rest my hand on the back of his neck.
»I wish I would've known Mischa..« I say looking at him while he clenches his jaw. It's his little sister. I can totally understand him. Even thinking about it makes me get goosebumps. I'm already freaking out about mother lying to me about my real father and he.. he has it so much worse.
I still don't want him to kill and do this stuff but I need to support and protect him. He did the same for me and I know I can help him. I would do everything for him. No matter what he wants. Everything.
»Yeah.. she would've liked you..« he says very cold. I tilt my head a little bit and bite my lower lip very sad. »What you're doing is something that not every brother would do.« a crooked smile places his lips and I smile too but my smile fades when he says
»Not every brother is a psychopath.« well every brother would be a psychopath but I didn't want to hurt him.
I run my hand through his hair again and play with it very softly. »You know.. that's not what I wanted to say..« he sighs. »I know. Don't worry about that.« I pull my hand away and smile proudly.
»And since I'm going to help you.. I'm a psychopath too!« I don't want him to think that he's the only one. »No, you won't.« he says and my jaw drops. I furrow my eyebrows and look at him questioning.
»But you said-...« he cuts me off while I'm trying to understand what he wants to tell me. »Yes. I'm taking you with me and you'll may help me with other things..« he winks at me and smirks. I can't believe him.
Then he keeps going »But I'm definitely not going to let you do anything baby.« I look at the road and clench my jaw. His moods change within seconds and I never know how to handle that. My blood is boiling. I also clench my first and my long nails hurt my palm.
»This is unfair and you know that. You told me you would let me help you.« I say very mad. »I didn't give any details.« what details? Why is it so hard for me to understand him? I roll my eyes. He's so calm.
He's literally enjoying it when I get angry. He always confuses me. He's going to regret this. »Maybe I won't even take you with me if it's too dangerous.« he must've gone crazy. Why is he doing this? I don't understand him and I won't even try it because I can already feel my brain burning.
