The Outsiders (Harry Styles)

Chapter 31

When I get home, I find that Amanda's been waiting for me all night. I tell her everything from the confusion, the kiss, the Sodapop. Everything. She seems concerned for me. I mean, I'm concerned for myself. I just don't know what to do. Yesterday, I told Harry that I love Jack. But I'm not sure if it's true. I don't think I love him. He's done the unthinkable. He tried to rape me. Drunk or not. I don't know if I want him back. We can be friends I guess. I think I want Harry. But I also like Sodapop. I've convinced myself before that I didn't find Soda attractive but I still do. Anyways, I just think I need a break from all this. Maybe I shouldn't date. Who ever said I NEEDED a boyfriend, right? I just need to clear my head and go to the lake. I put my earphones on and make my way towards the lake.

Harry's POV

This is fucked up. So fucked up. How am I possibly gonna win her back? If I fucking see her with Jack I am going to kill someone. I'm not a criminal, though she sees me as one. Because I'm a dirty ass greaser, right? I don't have money like Jack. It's a plus for him. I felt like we were kind of sneaking around. Not telling people. I reached out to her a couple of times. I've never done that with anyone else. I just need to clear my head and go to the lake. It's where I go to get away from reality and people. Though, will memories with Cherry there bring me back sorrow? Fuck it, I'm going.

Once I get there I find myself sitting under the kissing tree. Where I brought all my girls. The sky's clear and birds are chirping. It's relaxing but all t the same time I keep thinking about Cherry. I've been a lot of places but here is the place that I think of her most. The thought of her smile makes me smile. Suddenly, I spot her. Across the other side. She's sitting with her knees to her chin. She doesn't see me.

"Now, Romeo and Juliet probably never felt the way we felt," I say loudly and her gaze turns to me.

"I don't want to let go, Cherry. There might be something real between us two," my eyes connect with hers. It feels as if both of us aren't blinking.

"Are you quoting Justin Bieber?" I can hear her laugh. The sound of that makes my heart calm at the moment.

"No,"I put my hands in my pockets after I stand up.

"Come here," she tells me.

"I thought were done," I look at her.

"Who ever said we can't be friends?" She smiles. I sigh as I walk across the grass. After five minutes of walking, I sit next to Cherry.

"So you left me for Jack?" I keep my eyes on the water.

"We were never together," she wipes a piece of her hair out of her eyes.

"We were. I just don't like the title 'girlfriend' of 'dating'," I explain.

She fiddles with a leaf,"I don't love him."

Thank the fucking lord. I cover my eyes.

"Thank god."

"That just means I won't be with anyone. Not you, not Soda and not Jack."

"Why did you kiss him?" I ask her.

"I don't know I guess I just missed him at the moment. I wasn't thinking about all the horrible things he's done," her eyes meet mine.

"Cherry, I don't care if you want us to split. But, you attract men. It's so easy for you. I have to keep you safe, it'll kill me if I see a guy disrespecting you," I explain. She studies my face. "What?" I ask.

"Your eyes are so pretty." She tells me. I smirk at her. Damn do I want to kiss her.

"You look like a whore in those clothes," I joke. No but really, she's wearing like.. Nothing.

"Shut up," she playfully shoves me.

"Are you sure you're a virgin?" I chuckle.

"I think so," she laughs. I miss her so fucking much.

"How's your head?" I look at her.

"It's fine. You know, my mom asked me how it happened and the doctor said 'some guy pushed her.' She started freaking out and I told her that I fell. So your welcome."

"Cherry, I never meant to push you. The words ' if you ever come close to me again, I'll kill you.' Replays over and over in my head." I tell her. After a few seconds she responds.

"I said that because at the time it seemed like you did it on purpose." She explains. "Anyways, I gotta get going." She stands up and heads for the pathway.

"Bye."

Cherry's POV

I invited Niall and Amanda over because I'm so bored lately. I just need people to be with.

"I just finished this amazing book," I tell them as they sit down on the stools in my kitchen.

"Which one?" Amanda lifts a brow.

"The Fault In Our Stars," I say and she instantly smiles.

"I've been dying to read it," she says and I slide the book over to her.

"Your welcome," I laugh and she thanks me.

"Please don't tell me this is one of those chick flick books and then after you're gonna want me to act exactly like the boy in it and then annoy me forever." Niall rants while making the funniest face.

"It is," I tell him and he huffs.

"You're not reading it," he jokes and Amanda rolls her eyes. Suddenly, there's a knock on the door.

"One sec!"I rush to the door. When I open it, I'm not too surprised to see Jack.

"Hey," his hands are in his pockets.

"Hi," I say.

"Am I allowed to talk to you or..?" He asks.

"Just, come in." I tell him and he follows me in to the living room.

"So, what's going on cherry? I've been so confused for the past two days," he says. Ugh.

"I don't know," I sigh.

"Okay, so you're gonna go back to the greaser?" He folds his arms

"I never said that," I say quietly, knowing Amanda and Niall are listening.

"Cherry, you were thinking it," he groans.

"What do you have against greasers?" I ask him.

"Look, they're all hoods. They're all disgusting low lives, and I don't want you or Amanda around them. There not our kind."

"Yeah? Will this disgusting low life hood, is going to TU. So I'd shut the fuck up before I knock your teeth out," Niall walks out from the kitchen. "And you know what? Cherry isn't a toy, she's a human. You can't fight over her. I think you and Harry should get over yourselves and find someone new." He opens my door and leaves angrily.

"Whoa," Jack says.

"I'm sorry. I can't date you again. I know that we kissed but it's been over for a whole Jack," I tell him and he nods.

"Okay," he heads for my door and leaves without another word. Though, he looks upset, he tries not to show it.

"So, Niall was mad," Amanda comes out from the kitchen.

"No shit," I laugh.

"That was so mean what he said though," she shakes her head.

"I know," I say and the door opens again.

"He left, right?" Niall closes the door.

"Yeah. Where did you go?" Amanda can't stop laughing. The way he made his entrance was just too funny.

"I hid behind your house," he explains and I laugh.

"I love you so much," I shake my head.