High School // Malec

Chapter 33.

Magnus and I were laying beside each other on the bed in Magnus room. The clock was around 9pm and it was almost pitch black outside. When Magnus and I had stepped down from the railing of the bridge, the two of us and Izzy had returned back to Magnus's apartment. We cried for hours while we comforted each other and when Izzy had to return back home, claiming that the had to reassure the rest of the family that nothing horrible had happened to me, she had hugged me like she was scared that I would disappear if she let go. Minutes after Izzy had left, Magnus made some dinner for the two of us that we ate in silence. Trust me, I really wanted to talk to him, especially about what happened, but it was like I couldn't. I felt ashamed of myself that I had taken it so far that I almost jumped from a bridge, but at that moment, I didn't care. I knew that when I was climbing up the railing of the bridge, I could finally escape all the pain that I have been feeling so many years. The jump into the cold dark water would bring me and my mind peace, which I have dreamt about for so long.
- Can you promise me one thing?
Magnus calm voice brought me out of my trance and I could feel how he dragged his hand through my hair.
- Yeah, I stuttered
I slowly turned my attention towards him and saw how he looked at me with concerned eyes.
- Promise me that you'll never do something incredible stupid like that again. I can't lose you, Alexander. When Izzy called me and said that she thought you were about to kill yourself, it felt like I couldn't breathe. You're too important to me and without, I can't keep fighting
Magnus words brought tears to my eyes and for the first time in what felt like an eternity, I actually felt loved. When Magnus told me that he has been in love with me since third grade, it was like the whole world stopped spinning around me. I grew up with the fear that no one would fall in love with me, but now someone has proved me wrong.
- I promise, I whispered
A small smile appeared on Magnus lips and he carefully pressed a light kiss on my forehead, almost like he was scared that I would break.
- I love you so much and I don't think you understand for how long I actually have wanted to tell you that, Magnus said and the small smile didn't disappear from his lips
- I love you too, Magnus. If I'm going to be honest, I was extremely jealous of Camille because she got to kiss you whenever she wanted to, I answered and really did everything I could to hide my blushing face
- I never really thought that I would love someone the way I loved Camille, but I know now that I was lying to myself. I didn't love Camille, I only loved the thought of her. I was too scared of being alone, that's why I stayed together with her for so long
- You're never going to be alone, Magnus. I'm not going to leave you
- Thank you, Magnus answered
Instead of answering, I carefully placed both of my arms around him and cuddled closer until our bodies were pressed against each others.
- Can I tell you something really embarrassing? I asked after a while
- Of course
- When you kissed me earlier today, that was my first kiss, I said
- Really? Magnus asked and I could hear that he was really surprised
- Yeah, I answered
- I'm honoured to be your first kiss, Magnus said lovingly and pushed away some of my black hair that had ended up in front of my eyes
- You're not disgusting by the fact that I never have done something with another person? I asked
- Why would you even say something like that, Alexander? Of course I'm jot disgusted by you. If I'm going to be honest, it seriously makes you even more adorable and stunning than you already are
- You're too pure for this world, Magnus Bane, I whispered and felt how I blushed even more
Magnus let out a quiet chuckle as a response and the beautiful sound made my whole body feel warm.
- Where's your stepfather anyways? I asked when I realised that the two of us were alone in the apartment
- He's probably getting drunk somewhere with his idiotic friends, Magnus answered and let out a sigh
- Sometimes I wish that I just could run away and never come back. You know, just leave everything behind
- Yeah, me too
- Then again, I don't ever want to leave you, I said and looked at the beautiful man who laid beside me
- I can always run away with you, Magnus answered and the stunning smile was finally back on his lips
I let out a quiet chuckle as an answer and thereafter, I slowly placed my head on Magnus chest and felt how he started to massage my hair.
- Can I stay here until I feel safe enough to return back home? I asked after a while of silence
- You can stay as long as you want, Alexander. Besides, I wouldn't want you to leave anyways, Magnus said and placed a small kiss on my head
- Thank you
I won't lie, it felt really weird that so much has changed between me and Magnus in only a few weeks. We started of like best friends when we only were kids and suddenly, we were like strangers. Years later when all the bullying finally was over, we became best friends again and now, now we're in love with each other.
- We should get some sleep. Promise me that you'll wake me up if something happens, Magnus said
- If you promise me that you'll wake me up if something would happen to you, I answered and looked at him with a serious facial expression
- I promise
Magnus pressed his lips against mine in a slow passionate kiss that made me feel a million of butterflies in my stomach. When our lips finally separated after what felt like hours, Magnus placed both of his arms around me and carefully pressed my body even closer to his.
- Goodnight, he whispered
- Goodnight, I whispered back

// TBC \\