Falling For My Fear

Falling for my fear 13

SAM:

I was sitting in the dinning room, with Nate Mercy Evan and a few others.

I was about to say something when Emma came in "Sorry" she said to Nate, and walked to stand near Evan, she smiled sadly at me when she caught me looking.

"You left" Nate said, I nodded.

"I did" He sighed and wrap his arms around Mercy.

"You saw Jason" He said not asking me but still felt I had to say something.

"Yeah" I heard Evan growl slightly, strange. Growl? From a witch he's been here to long. I smiled to myself; he's settling i thought to myself.

"What happened?" Mercy asked- what she meant was did he hurt me?

"He um... tried to uhh" I stumbled I couldnt say it when Evan was here, I looked at Nate to beg him to understand that I couldnt say.

He nodded, "Right well you need to tell us everything you know about him"

"Ok" I said to him, when Mercy asked "Where's Jace?"

I sighed and looked away. "Here" Said a voice that sent shivers down my back "Sorry I'm late"

I didnt look at him; I couldnt. I walked away he wasnt mine. I couldnt be with him.

"Jason is rouge as you know; he umm has a way with the women. I met him about a year and half ago..." I began. "He was so sweet and different he promised me everything a girl could ever want; love, kindess safe harbour. I was in love with him, and he with me. Or at least I think he was. I knew he was a werewolf because he told me about his family; his father was kicked out of a pack but I dont know why he never told me. His mother and father died when he was young, and so he was always on his own. It was two months into the relationship when he started to get possesive he told me that it was part of being a wolf, and that he never meant it. But he even got jealous of Evan at one point. He was umm... my" For some reason I knew I had to say this because it was when it started but it was embarrassing. "First, but the second time we..." I trailed off.

"Had sex, shagged, f***ed" Brenna replied for me. I looked at her and nodded but blushed still. "The second.. time we did that it wasnt exactley um" I stopped trying to think of a word.

"Are you saying he raped you?" Nate asked. I hadnt told Evan the whole this.

"Uh not exactley" I said.

"What do you mean?" Jace asked I looked at him and saw he had a guarded expression on but his eyes there was an emotion that I could never call him upon; Love.

"It... well It was like he umm" I couldnt remember what Scott had told me it was. He knew because his wife was taken and it happened to her. "Mind raped me" I whispered remembering.

I heard growls errupt the room. I looked around and saw that most of them had angry expressions on.

"I dont get it" Emma whispered like she was ashamed that she didnt know what it was.

"Well..." I smiled sadly at her I saw Evan watching me. "I was telling him no, and that he should stop but I couldnt stop him because I couldnt move" I explained she was still confused. "I couldnt stop him because it was like my body was being held down even though they werent" I whispered to her remembering the tears streaming down my face, the pain I got everytime I tried to move away.

I looked at Evan. "I'm so sorry I didnt tell you E, its just I was so ashamed that he did but I couldnt stop him" I told him tears falling. "I didnt know what to do because..." He walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me. Slowly rocking me