Falling For My Fear

Falling for you Fera! Extended scene.. last chap.

I really couldn't be bothered to get changed into my pj's so I found a top of Jaces and put it on walking into our bedroom, knowing he was already in there waiting for me. "You look better in that then I do" He said kissing my cheek as I got into bed, it was a white t-shirt that came mid thigh, my hair was down and I was wearing well underwear aswell. "Jace how many girls have you slept with?" I asked him, buring my face into his chest while I asked him this. He sighed and gently wrapped his hand in my hair and pulled my head away from his chest which made me blush. I couldn't believe I had asked him that. "Im sorry I didn't... you don't have to answer that" I said to him, he shook his head with a small smile.

"Ive had sex with 5 different girls" he answered me, I nodded and blushed.

"Was one of those Brenna?" I asked him, even though I knew the answer... I couldn't help it.

"Yes, but you knew that" he said to me. I couldn't think of anything to say apart from:

"Oh." Was all he got, he watched me then asked me.

"Jason is the only guy you've had sex with?" he asked me, I blushed and nodded. I couldn't help but think when me and Jace have sex, he'll compare me to the other girls! What if im not as good? When it was Jason I kinda just laid there and cried I don't know what to do! Im practically a virgin.  

"Was Brenna..." I started but then changed my mind, I couldn't ask it.

"Hey what is it?" he asked me, I shook my head.

"Cant, it doesn't matter" I said quickly. He sighed and brought my face up too his.

"She didn't mean anything, especially compared to you Sammy, youre everything to me. What is it?" he said to me.

"Was... she... the best...." I trailed off, managing to get it out. He shook his head.

"No, because I know you'll be the best" he said to me, I shook my head.

"How do you know that Jace? Ive only had sex with Jason! And to be honest that wasn't even sex in the end!" I said to him, he sighed. "Jason forced me so Im basically a virgin and of course you didn't have sex with Brenna only once because its her, she doesn't seem like that type of girl. So Im a virgin... I could be the worst youll ever have and youll be stuck with me because..." he stopped me by placing a finger over my lips.

"I know youre will be the most amazing because its with you Sam, its with you. We wont be having sex anyway, we'll be making love" I couldn't help but laugh at that cheesy laugh, he smirked. "Sammy it doesn't matter if its one guy, no guy or a hundred, even though id have to kill everyone... It's the fact youre with me and I with you. Not how good, or when or how its with who that matters." He said to me. I smiled at him. Kissing his lips I managed to roll on top of him. I pulled away and looked down at him, all I could see in his eyes was- love, lust and need. But the strongest was love, it always was. He brought his hand up to my cheek and I couldn't help it, the lights were off so it was fine. He couldn't see the scars. Those scars that made me run all these months, all those innconents died because of me not able to handle the scars.

My hands were at the bottom of my top like im ready to pull it up, Jace was watching me with those greens eyes that made me fall for him in the first place. I was nervous, would the scars make him turn away? Not want me because they make me hidious.

"Baby you don't have too, Ill wait" he said stroking my cheek bone with his thumb. Looking down at his beautiful face I knew the answer, closing my eyes and taking a deep breath I pulled the top off.Condering I was only in the top and my undies, he had a view of nearly everything. I heard him let out a hiss, I knew it was making him cringe. Shaking my head from embarrassment and to stop the tears, opened I eyes I started to reach for my top when he caught my arm.

"Stop" he said to me, I froze and I couldn't help it I looked at him. His eyes are raking down my body.

"I can... Ill just..." he quickly rolled us so he was above me now- stopping me from putting the top back on.

"Don't you dare" he said to me, stroking my face. I blushed as I saw his eyes travelled down my body.

"Youre beautiful" he whispered his hand travelling down my body touching my skin I never thought I'd let anyone touch.

"Jacee" I whispered, he shook his head and beant his head to follow the scar on my collar bone, on my belly, he kissed every scar. Then he kissed the one that is on my hip bone then he kissed a place no one would ever kiss again if its not him, the one on my inside thigh right by my... underwear line. I couldn't stop the shiver.

"Youre beautiful, these scars mean nothing to me. Actually that's a lie because as much as I wish you couldve of avoided the pain, the fact is if that SOB didn't hurt you I couldve never have met you and that would not be any point living without. I love you Samantha Porter" he said to me kissing me.

"I love you too Jace Dean, I don't regret Jason because I may never have met you but I do regret all the people that got hurt because of me and Jason. Im sorry I was scared to be with you, I now know you would never hurt me." I said to him honestly, he gently kissed me it started slow then started to get passionate. He started to kiss down my body and some how his shirt came off.

He was pulling my underwear off now kissing while do that.

"My scars don't bother you...?" I managed to choke out, he laughed a throaty laugh while he kissed one that was in one of the most private areas.

"Not one bit in fact I quite like them..." he said and showed me just how much.