Always Bad

Chapter Six

"I'm going to be so freaking late omg." Curl fasterrr. I'm trying to curl my hair fast but it doesn't curl fast enough. The doorbell rings and I scream out of the bathroom for Max to go get it.

I finally finish curling my hair and go back into my room to look at my outfit. I have blue jeans on with a maroon off the shoulder shirt, along with a cream long cardigan and my black bootie heels.

I walk down the stairs to find Max laughing and talking with Jax. They both look up at me and Jax stands up. He walks over to me and sort of brushes my hand, as if he was going to grab it, then decided against it.

"Let's go beautiful." He whispers in my ear and opens the door for me. I blush and look away quickly. I look to Max before walking out.

"Behave, and so help me god, if I come back to find a mess you will be grounded for the rest of your life. Goodnight." I say extremely sweetly and with a smile.

I walk out hearing Max and Jax laughing and down the steps and towards the car, I hear Jax follow me and shut the door behind him.

He comes around to the passenger side of the car and opens the door for me. I get into the car and put my seat belt on as Jax goes hops into the car to his side and does the same. Jax turns the car on and revs the engine, ugh I love that sound, so freaking hot. I did not just think that... after driving what felt like forever I decide to break the silence.

"Where are we going?" I look over at Jax. He takes a slight glance at me and smiles. He should smile more. It looks good on him.

"You'll see." He says looking straight at the highway again. I roll my eyes and look up out the window.

The sun was starting to set when we arrived at a beach. Jax parked and pulling the key out of the ignition and turn to me with a grin plastered on his face and excitement in his eyes. We both get out of the car and he takes me by the hand. His hands are so soft, and warm, I could hold his hand all day.

We take off our shoes to walk in the sand, and with our hands intertwined I follow him to wherever he is going. We come upon a canopy that had soft incandescent lights hanging and a picnic laid out. I smile and look up at him to find that he's already looking at me. With his eyes as blue as the sea what I see standing in front of me right now is nowhere near close to the guy I ran into my first day of school.

"Do you like it?" He asks me with worry laced in his voice. Once again, I smile at him and respond.

"It's absolutely beautiful Jax, I love it." His smile reappears making me the happiest I've been in a long time.

We talk about random things while we eat, what our favorite color is, our favorite movies, shows you know all of the things that make us who we are. But there was only one thing on my mind.

"So, you said you wanted to talk... what about?" I ask hesitantly without looking him in the eyes, afraid of what he wants to know. Maybe he already knows, fuck. Averie calm down, you don't know what he is going to say.

"Your brother, he's a good kid you know." I look up at him surprised. That is far from what I thought he was going to say. "You might want to not be so hard on him..."

Did he just say that? How could he tell me not to be hard on him. I was his only parent when he was growing up.

My eyes shot up at him with even more raging anger than before.

"How dare you? You know nothing of me, of him, of our lives! I was the one who raised him while our mother was murdered, and our father was always away doing god knows what," Okay, so maybe that was a lie. I do know where he was at all times. Doesn't make a difference though, he wasn't there for us.

"We've been on our own since the day we were born. And guess what we've been doing just fine so don't... don't you dare tell me to not be hard on him. I will be hard on him because I want him to grow up and become something that his father never was...what I'm not." My voice started to choke, and I could feel the tears forming at the brim of my eyes. "Something that I'll never be..."

I get up and walk away from Jax and toward the sea. Once I get to the water I look at the blinding sun making its last appearance before it disappears beneath the horizon of the sea.

I let the tears fall and I cave in, there's really no going back now. I let all the anger and sadness from when my parents never came home, the disappointment from when they left me to defend Max and I, and the fear of what will happen in the future, because no matter how hard I try I can't control everything.

I stand there for a few seconds letting everything in when I feel Jax wrap his arms around my waist and put his head on my shoulder and look out at the water with me. I don't pull away, I don't say anything cocky, I just enjoy the presence of him being there holding me, the feeling of being safe.

"Please, don't cry my princesa, I won't ever leave you like they did. I will always be there, and care for you, and Max. I will protect you and keep you safe. And you will become something. You'll become mine." I feel him smile on my skin. I smile as well and feel the heat creeping onto my cheeks.

"Now, let's go home." I nod my head and turn around. I wrap my hands around his neck and give him a hug. He hugs back for a second then picks me up carrying me bridal style to the car. I get into the car and put my seat belt on... I feel my eyes drifting shut as I lay my head back on the seat. I close my eyes and the last thing I feel is Jax giving me a kiss on my forehead and saying "Minha querida, princesa."  

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I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter as much as I did writing it. I really want to start writing more. I literally got so busy and stopped for a week and I missed it so much. Anyway... so excited for these new chapters I already have my ideas and dialogue and stuff implanted into my brain because I always think about it at the most inconvenient times. But it's alright I write down and then I transfer it onto here to show you guys. So I hoped you enjoyed it. Until next time. -Trin