hold me while you can • jenzie

days. months. years. decades.

 *read the flashback to understand the first paragraph*

mackenzie

my head pangs and my legs throb. but i keep going. i am living life this way. with horrible parents, horrible siblings, horrible friends, and horrible enemies. I envy them all. and they envy me. i guess that's just life. 

flashback

I push the huge heavy doors open and the wind calaspes as the door close. but im felt with stares, dirty ones. everyone staring at me. whispering names. i get to my locker and see post it notes with names like slut, whore, and annoying. i shed a tear before hearing my name getting called. 

"mackenzie!" a husky stern angry voice appeared

I clenched my jaw and turned around to see johnny, lauren, brynn, and maddie. i push myself against the wall. they come closer while i grab my backpack and phone from my opened locker. i run out the heavy doors with all eyes on me. i turn back to see johnny and the rest staring at me but lauren. she was looking at the post it notes. and i could only see a grin appearing. 

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running. you know the phrase sing for your life. well i am running for my life. passing streets when the stop sign is up, passing gardens that are others territory, and dodging trees, and mailboxes. and i reach my destination. 

a bus stop. 

perfect. i look at the schedule and see the next bus arriving in 5  minutes. i sit down and finally decided  to go on my phone. 

no missed calls. no text messages.

wow everyone cares about me. 

i tap on the screen and it sends me to twitter. so many posts are about me! i didn't do anything though! i go into the search area and read the newspaper article

"mackenzie ziegler - a fake person. 

turns out the dance mom star mackenzie ziegler has no friends. some of her friends like brynn, and lauren also from dance moms said she lied constantly and ditched them for guys. johnny orlando, and former friend of mackenzie ziegler has completley bailed on her and will not share why saying its personal allthough his sister lauren said its about not being there for each other when they needed it the most. abby lee miller has kicked mackenzie off dance moms and said she hopes to never see her again."

my eyes flooded with tears. they used me. just like everyone else. and they don't care about me like everyone else. i may have been abbys favorite but i will always envy her. i screenshoted the article and the bus arrived. I hoped in and gave the bus driver a 20. he nodded and i searched for a back seat. 

end of flashback

after the bus i headed down and started walking far. i was in San Francisco somewhere wandering. i needed to leave where somebody didn't know my name. i needed to go where i have real friends. real people. 

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[next day - still walking]

i dont care if i get caught by the poparizi, i just need to be free. i see from a short couple mile distance a long red bridge. golden gate bridge. yes! 

i walk a couple more miles and i reach the bridge.

it beautiful. honestly. this is it. mackenzie come on. no one ever showed you love. no one ever cared about you. it was all just fake.

i took my phone and wrote a message to lauren, johnny, brynn, and maddie. "hope your happy i am gone this is all you guys ever wanted you should have told me. i would have done this before."

I send the message and they all read it instantly. 

johnny was the first to reply

"what the heck? omg no!"

"stop acting like you care. bye"

i dropped the phone first and stood on the border. no one stopped me. i jumped. the pressure of my body went down faster than normal. and i hit the cold ground. goodbye.

[655 words]

sorry i haven't posted in so long. and sorry this is short but i made it extra juicy. 

comment what you think johnny will say... love you guyssss