The grey canvas

📌Chapter 20- Lost star

Nitara:

My eyes were hazy and my body, numb. Only the abnormal breathes told me that I was still alive.
Lucky much?

My hands, that had been stuck upon Dev's face, cherishing the warmth and radiance of his skin, fell down automatically. The welling tears followed them soon.

Dev's last few words kept ringing in my ears- "This child is not mine" , he had said. I wandered why my eardrum still didn't fall apart. Was there anything else left to hear? Couldn't I better die instead??

I sighed. I gulped. I tasted my own tears.... I wasted few valuable seconds from Dev's life while embracing my remaining self against him.

He watched me intently all these while and pretended to be ignorant. His beautiful eyes were speechless, emotionless.. dull and dead. I could see myself breaking and succumbing in the mirror of those orbs. It was painful.

"Do you have anything else to tell?" I framed my mind in proper words.

-"No." He replied readily.

"Go then."

-"I am taking you with me."

I re-looked into his eyes. What was he trying to say, I wandered. Was he trying to manipulate me somehow?

"But I am not coming with you." I stated simply.

-"Tara, I have admitted you here so I am the one going to discharge you and take you home, okay?" He replied a bit irritated. I flushed in anger.

"You were the one who made me pregnant and then denied this child to be yours. Did I say anything about that? Did I complain? No, right? Becoz I know this is what you are, not only emotionless but spineless too! So please, don't take further troubles of discharging me.... you have already done enough, please spare me now!!" I folded my hands infront of him. My lips kept quivering in anticipation.

He remained calm for a while. His eyes were still the same though- expressionless. But yes, they were fixed at me as if discovering my fathoms. It was weird and dangerous ofcourse. Being captivated by him wasn't affordable at all. I tore the eye contact and looked elsewhere.

-"Why are you doing this Tara? Why are you saying that this baby is mine when both of us know that it belongs to Kshitiz?" He asked after a long time.

"You know what Dev? Only a mother knows who is the father of her baby...And when she an expecting mother, she can't lie about the baby. Becoz her baby is still inside her womb then and lying about something that is yet unborn, don't you think its a serious offense?" I asked him back, inspite of knowing well that he was again going to spill some useless stuff out of his kitty.

-"You are diverting the topic Tara!" He replied. Ofcourse, as expected!!

"I am not diverting anything Dev. Its just that if YOU don't remember anything about that night then I am not at fault too!"

-"Which night?" He threw a blunt question that left me stunned for a moment. It was like... like seriously? Why was I even talking with this man??

"When you threw me out of your house, the previous night it was.. our most awaited night it was...."
I still replied. Duh!

-"You mean to say that after crossing all lines of proximity, you didn't take a contraceptive the next morning?" He asked nonchalantly. And the way he shrugged his shoulders, I swear I wanted to strangulate him then and there. Bloody moron!

"You have spoken enough. Get lost now." I uttered in a grave tone and looked down. Even the last pinch of desire to see Dev, had burnt out now.

-"No more arguements Tara. You are coming with me and that's final." He ordered. He bloody ordered again!